Planning for cravings and caring too much

I was thinking about how a craving can be such a set-up for failure. And then the thought hit me that caring too much about "how I look" can also be a set up for failure. I mean, I do want to be healthy and go raw, but I can't be obsessed that it becomes so important that it takes over-sometimes it feels that way. I dislike having to admit that, but it is true. I need to get comfortable with me and who I am. I am not a 110 lb "model" and I never will be. I would be unhealthy if that was my body. I just want to lose some weight and the body fat and be happy with my body. I truly believe my body will shift into it's "natural size" when I make the choice to cut out the sugar and processed foods and eat raw. I need to find and be prepared with substitutes when I have the cravings for "junk" food.

Food for Sat 6.23.07:
1 C coffee w/ vanilla creamer
16.9 oz water
fruit- 1 1/2 banana, red grapes, 1/2 apple, pieces of watermelon and cantelope
org food bar-vegan (90% raw)
16.9 oz water
1 C steamed rice w/ steamed vegetables and garlic sauce
16.9 oz water
2 med reg coffees w/ soymilk and sugar
2 grilled cheese sandwiches
16.9 oz water
8 chocolate chip cookies
Now I feel sick!! It's is almost silly. I wanted to eat the ice cream I had (vanilla soy ice cream) and thought "no", but then "acted" on the craving and ate the sandwiches and cookies. I need to slooowww down, plan better and see and remember that there are raw substitutes for everything I crave. Kinda funny, huh?!?
I think I'll try to stop beating myself up!!!