In need of support.............

I realize that after posting for awhile that I forgot my real reason for starting this blog..to be accountable for what I eat, to convert to raw, and to get support to do it. (an effort to get honest, real and raw). I have begun to feel like I am all knowing and wise and I am NOT!!! Actually, today I just gave in to my food addiction and as I got home from my grocery store and fast food run, I sat feeling sick to my stomach and defeated. Prayer, I am not having any faith that this can be any different. It can. God can and will give me the strength to overcome, but I need support as well.

So I am here asking for it. Any kind..your experiences, a good swift dose of reality thrown at me. I felt in my spirit as I was typing this that some of what I need to get real about is why I want to go raw. I think some of my struggles are that I want to be stick skinny vs. being healthy and a healthy weight. I am not accepting myself as I am, as God loves me. And, I just give up...the "oh well, I care about it later attitude" or the "I know I don't want to go and binge..I know I don't have to...oh well..I give in and up......Help!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


07.26.07

1 c coffee w/ van reamer
2 c coffee w/ soy milk and van stevia
1/2 raw food bar
smoothie* (banana/orange/strawberries/green powder/water)
500 ml water
1.5 oz dk cho bar
1 L water
veg burger* w/ tomato* and green garlic dressing
500 ml water
3 sugar cookies
2 oatmeal rasin cookies
500 ml water
500 ml water
4 cho chip cookies
1 corn on cob*
500 ml water
1 lg creme puff
5 slices cheese
1 med order onion rings
500 ml water
1 c water