RAW ~Out of My Senses~

Raw Desserts class-Cousins Incredible Vitality

2010-03-30T17:56:00.007-04:00

Yum, Yum, Yum!!! Raw Desserts!!!!!! ;0

How can you not ~~looove~~ them. They taste great and are good for you too. I took a class at RGI at Cousin's IV in Chicago on Saturday taught by the fabulous Caroleen. She and her sweet, kind and helpful assistants made the class so much fun. I have knowledge of making raw desserts, but this class took my knowledge to a new level. I so love doing this. It is such a passion for me!! If you ever get a chance go eat at Cousins IV. The food is great and the staff are super great!! Check them out here: http://www.cousinsiv.com/ The raw deep dish pizza is delicious and so is my personal favorite Dolmas.

Since going about 75% raw, I have been losing weight, but even MORE noticible I have lost over 16". This feels so good! I am losing my cravings for processed, refined sugary treats and and flour carb snack. Now I am enjoying good, tasty and good for me foods.

I have heard, stick to a new habit for 100 days and it will become routine and habit no more.

New Beginnings

2010-03-16T18:10:00.004-04:00

So much new is going on. God is blessing my life so abundantly!!! Yesterday I gave my 30-day notice at my full-time job (very hard, yet joyful to do, my boss and I both cried and rejoyced) to go full-time with my massage business!!! Yeah!!!

I have been eating about 75-90% RAW the last week and I feel great!! I have really felt that push over the plateau in my weight and in my emotional attachment to "I can't do this". I have more energy, feel good, feel thinner and more healthy. Although I am definately experiencing detox symptoms: runny nose, stuffy sinuses, but I don;t feel awful or anything like that. I am getting into making RAW desserts and have been sharing them with several SAD eating friends who are liking them. God has placed this on my heart as a 2nd business and I even had someone approach me about sharing my product.

Life is good and new beginnings are exciting!! Be blessed in all you do.

Lose to Win Big

2010-02-16T19:43:00.003-05:00

Well, after a long time, I have decided to post something. I don't really know why. Maybe I will see this as "accountability". :-)

Anyways, we started a weight loss challenge at work (isn't that just all the rage nowadays?), but I decided to join for support. I was asked why I joined. I mean I am not obese, but I joined because my weight is on the verge of being "overweight" and it's what "you don't see" (well, except my lovey hubby ;0!!) that I see as more of my "concern. It's the body fat, especially in those medical "concern areas" such as the belly and the vanity "concern areas" such as the belly, hips and thighs.

So I have joined this challenge at work and it gives me motivation and accountability.

Here's to healthy lifestyle changes.

HEEELLLOOOOOO

2008-01-28T11:07:00.000-05:00

Well, hello to all. It's ben a long time since I have posted. Just busy and honestly not very focused on being raw right now. I know, SAD but true. Get it!!!! ;) I've been reading Fit for Life, very good book and have Diet for a New America next on my list. I have been giving in to lack of consistency and change in my eating habits. The addiction of food.
Thanks to anonymous (you know who you are) for the recent comment. It was real, and honest and real I am not being, but I don't need you to tell me that. Please reveal yourself openly and stop "HIDING" in the wings or just STOP and let it be. I would really appreciate that. Anyways, thanks for the comments. It did make me have to stop and look at myself again, and you are right. I do try to keep reinventing myself but that isn't always bad. It is when I am trying to be something I am not, but we are ever changing so we can be reinventing ourselves in a good way. I realize from the comment that I just need to look at this and be honest with myself. I know I don't love and accept me-I can admit that. I know God is bigger than all this and will help me and I just need to let Him. BTW, happy or not can change in a moments time. It is how I deceide to be and what I let affect me or not and the choices I make about it. God has blessed my life beyond measure since I have accepted Him into my life. Being fat or not, happy or not, is all in how I ((feel)) about myself and what I chose to see.
To all reading this, I rejected the comment. It came anonymous (which I truly dislike!!!!). I KNOW who it was from by the wording, but really, why do people want to read and comment on your blog and be too afraid to comment with their name. Who are they "really" hiding from?
May God bless you ALL this New Year. May He fill you with peace and love and prosper you above and beyond all you can imagine. And if you have feelings like I do about yourself, comment to me and we can pray for each other. The power of prayer is an awesome thing and I am very open right now for anyone who wants to pray together.

Home, building relationships, loving myself more

2007-11-16T10:25:00.000-05:00

It has been quite a while since I last posted-2 weeks. Several things have been happening. My husband and I bought a home-out 1st ever-and we are SOOOO excited!!!!!

The home is soooo cute. A friend of mine at church told me about a month ago to write down on paper everything we are asking God for in a home. So we did and prayed on it and God provided everything!!!!! Of course, this is God's wonderous power and love for us and definately not anything above and beyond His capabilities. He is such a good God!!! Kevin has a studio to continue teaching (he is a professional guitar player and teaches) and I will have a room to set up for doing massage and my M-I-L has here space upstairs while we have our living down in a full finished walk out basement. Everybody wins!!!

Speaking of my M-I-L, we have been bonding the last two weeks. God has show me the importance of breaking down my walls of selfishness with her and looking past the things that "bother" me and see the good in her. I have found out she is funny and kind and needs friendship too. She is a new and different woman in my eyes and I am learning the importance to stop each day and spend some time with her, no matter how busy my day is!!

I have been working on my "journey" to raw still. This month has been dedicated to vegan eating. Although, I will admit I have not had 100% committment to this, so I challange myself as of this day-where is my loyalty to changing my eating habits?

Goals: 1. Start out realistic and transition. 2. Add more raw to my daily eating. 3. Eat vegan this month (this really is NOT a hard goal.)

Here is a bit that really spoke to me, it is from Jingee from TheGardenDiet.com and she wrote: "What we believe is very important. I can be eating the healthiest diet in the world, but if I still worry that I'm eating poorly, it won't do me as much good. Or I can be eaing what I believe is the best diet, and even if it isn't, it will do me good, and it will lead me to a better way of life. The thing is to do what we really believe in. The other thing is to not focus only on diet. The focus is on good health, or on being a balanced person. Then everything falls in place!"

Thanks Jingee! Really made me think about my relationship with food and health.

I have also redone my "top 10 goals" and as I was doing them I learned to be both realistic and not too stringent with my goals. (for example, with exercise I decided to just set a goal of exercise "regularly", instead of do this "X" times a week and that "X" times a week because that type of goal sets me up to fail, I just need to more more and when I mix it up and do what I "enjoy" I will keep at it!!)

Top 10 "Cindy" goals:

1. Read Bible and pray daily. (increase my relationship with God)*

2. Hubby time-one date night per week.

3. Cindy time-massage every other week or some type of "pampering"

4. Increase personal self-esteem*

5.. More family time (prosper in family relationships)*

a. Sunday is family day (me, Kevin and m-i-l)

b. Call "my" family once a week and touch base.

6. Exercise regularly

7. Go RAW

a. Weight down to 130 lbs.

b. Body Fat down to 15-20%.

8. Read, study, listen to CD : something every night to increase my knowledge, interests, and passions.

9. Learn to play bass

10. Set up business

Well there they are. I feel they are good!!! Much peace and love until next time!!!!!!!!

NEW BEGINNINGS

2007-11-01T09:47:00.000-04:00

Well, it has been quite some time since I have posted and I have been working on some "Cindy issues" :) during this time. If you follow my past posts I just went back to eating-full on!!!!-and have gained back 16 of the 17 lbs that I lost.

Well, I want to feel bad but what's the use. I mean, what is REALLY important in life? Is it food, weight or God, family, friends? I would say the latter.

If I want to change my body then I need a healthy plan and trust and reliance on God and family and friends. Juice Feasting IS healthy, I believe, but I did not follow the protocol for it. And, I was not READY for the committment to it.

My goal is to work to eventually being RAW. This month I will be vegan. I will transition into it. There are so many great receipes and support out there to do this-RAW and Vegan.

Anyways, I am working into a healthy eating and exercise plan. I have to remind myself that I and this body are not 25 years old anymore and won't react in the same way to food and exercise. I am trying to find out what is best for me and not be "obsessive" about it. I am looking to God for help and have picked 3 very special women to me that I am going to ask to be my "prayer Circle" of support.

I chose today 11-1-07 as a new day for a new beginning. Tomorrow is my 2 year anniversary to my most amazing husband!!!!!!!!!!!

I plan to still "redo" my top 10 goals (currently in process), follow Karen Knowler's (The Raw Food Coach) protocol steps to "Why doI want to go raw?" Plan a exercise program that "grows" with me and I can committ to not something that starts out with unrealistic goals. Also I read that to do hard cardio and not have good form and weights too, then it does more harm that good.

Well, that is where I am at. A new beginning........................ :)

Pondering change

2007-10-17T10:36:00.000-04:00

Today is a day of pondering change and getting things back into perspective. I haven't been blogging much, as you can see, and I think that is to pull myself away from accountability. I have felt quite changed yet uncomfortable. After juice feasting for 14 days, and then continuing to incorporate juice into my (most) daily intake I have seen some good changes: Loss of weight (17 lbs), better hair and skin, better attitude, more happiness, better comcentration. Good things!!! But, what I see I failed to do was get my relationship with "me" in order!! I went back to food and incorporated a lot of raw but also added in a lot of "junk" and processed foods just because I "craved" them and used no self-control. I saw weight gain (5 lbs), skin breakouts, dryer skin and hair, etc...

Well, all that to say this.....I see the change has to come from within and I need to love me for me and who I am on the inside NOT the outside. I feel it is important to bw healthy and eat well and I still want to eat RAW, but there is more to being thin and healthy than just being thin and healthy. It must come from within too.

I am updating my top 10 goals that I set for myself 3 months ago. I am starting a book called "Victory over the darkness" to work on me. My Pastor's wife gave it to me and I really believe it will do a lot to help me see the opression I am allowing over me in this area and free me from this bondage. I am also going to go to prayer and healing school at church which is held once a week. I need support and teaching and need to quit hiding "in the dark" and trying to do it "my way".

I feel bored with doc'ing what I eat/drink but I feel inside I need to do it so I will. I think I will just keep i my own personal journal and then post "things/eating" that seems necessary. :)

I send Much peace and love to all of you who follow this and read this, I appreciate your prayers and support and comments. :)

The desire for freedom

2007-10-01T16:53:00.000-04:00

Why am I so obsessed? Why do I just give in and quit? How to I break this? I have broke addictions in the past. I CAN do this. Maybe, the truth is, I am not wanting to do this. Let me ponder this some........yes, I am struggling. Any words of inspiraton out there? Thanks!!!!!

Salads

2007-10-01T16:52:00.001-04:00

SALADS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I started a parasite cleanse called Parastroy. I'm gettng tired of sharing what I eat though, only because I don't see it as inspirational and I "want" to be. Well, I started this to be "honest and get real". That's what not sharing is avoiding-admitting my not good choices.

3 c coffee w/ creamer

32 oz water

grapes

peanut butter

chips and salsa

salad w/ salsa

more PB

ice cream-ab 2 T

orange herbal tea w/ honey

32 oz water

Fruits

2007-09-28T17:44:00.000-04:00

Fruits, Fruits, Fruits

I am excited about adventuring out and working woth lots of new, yummy raw food receipes. I am also excited about keeping my new, trim figure and working on it to be more fit and tones through raw foods and excercise.

One thing I need to get addressed is my food addiction. As you can see from my eating today, I start out on the feast breaking goal, and then I give in with no faith or trust to change. Today is supposed to be juice, prunes and juicy fruits.

Eats today:

2 c coffee w/ creamer

2-2'x3' pieces of coffee cake (at work meeting)

6 oz prunes

1 peppermint patty

32 oz water

1 1/3 c grapefruit juice

organic red grapes

^^^^^^^

cheese and mayo sandwich

3 lg spoonfuls of PB&J

piece of coffee cake

4 cookies

potato chips

corn muffin w/ butter

1 slice pizza

5 jalapeno poppers

^^^^^^^^^^^^

26 oz water

OK, the more I just avert from faith and from having victory and not doing and following a meal plan the longer this will go on. What do I and don't I want?

1. I don't want to be fat.

2. I don't want to be obsessed that my looks make who I am.

3. I want to trust that it is what is on the INSIDE.

4. I want to trust God.

5. I want to have faith.

6. I want to work on Victory Over the Darkness.

7. I want to set new/revised goals and work on them.

8. I want to be free from my addiction with food.

Prunes

2007-09-27T14:54:00.001-04:00

Prunes, Prunes, Prunes..... :)

I am starting to plan "RAW" subs for the things I crave- RAW potato chips for ptoato chips, RAWEOS for cookies, etc..... I think that will help get through the craving periods. I really want to take care of my body and be healthy!!!! I can see some things, obviously, that I need to cut out, but I am also trying to just be "kind" to myself right now and not be so hard and unloving to me!!! How can I love others if I don't 1. have a relationship with God and 2. love myself first!!!!

I am going to set some goals for eating and RAWing. I have looked over my 10 goals I set back several months ago and I see some accomplishments/achievements, in processes, and a few still to work on.....that IS progress. I will revamp them to add new to thoser I have accomplished. Updates to follow later................

1 c coffee w/ van creamer

10 oz van soy latte

3 c lettuce/tomato/zuccini/carrot/cayene/italian seasoning

32 oz water

1 T honey

1 T bee pollen

soak water from prunes-YUM!!!!!- about 1+/- C

5 oz soaked prunes

^^5 cookies, 3 saltines, 1 T PB, potato chips, crumb cake batter^^

Day 55, 56, 57

2007-09-24T11:08:00.001-04:00

I went the first 14 days on totally all juice but have incorporated food here and there for the remaining 43 days. I just feel I need to be thankful and appreciative for what I achieved and now move on with this journey in life and have my weight loss experience to share and reflect on. I have achieved some amazing goals in my perspective:
1. the overall loss of (as of today) 15 lbs.
2. accomplishing 14 straight days of JUST juice.
3. incorporating juice into my daily food intake and seeing it's importance.
4. achieving healthier hair, skin and nails.

day 55:
1 c camomile tea w/ honey
1 c canteloupe
32 oz water
1/4 t kelp
1 qt spinach/zuccini/radish/apple/turnip/coconut water/kale
2 T bee pollen
B&P

Day 56:
16 oz blended latte
1 qt grapefruit/orange
1 qt spinach/radish/apple/zuccini/coconut water
4 T honey
32 oz water
B&P

Day 57:
coffee w/ vanilla creamer
1 qt romine/cucumber/zuccini/apple
32 oz water
10 oz van latte
1 qt zuccini/pineapple
8 oz water
1/4 t kelp
4 T honey
2 T bee pollen
5 or 6 cookies
NO B&P

on to the next journey....until tomorrow, peace............................ :)

day 53, 54

2007-09-24T11:07:00.003-04:00

Have noticed a return of underarm odor since the return of all the SAD food..hmm

day 53:
16 oz water
1 c hawthornberry tea
1 qt barlean's greens
32 oz waterX2
(B&P)

day 54:
32 oz water
1 1/2 c camomile tea w/ honey
24 oz water
1 c spinach/zuccini/parsley/apple/radish/kale
16 oz water
(B&P)

Day 52

2007-09-24T11:07:00.001-04:00

I am tired this morning. Wiped out, slow to get going, still somewhat depressed!!!!!!!

went away with hubby tonight-had a great time together-we needed this!!!

1 c herbal tea w/ honey
1 qt zuccini/pineapple
2 2/3 c orange
32 oz water
cinnamon roll
3 c broccli/apple/romine/radish
24 oz water
salad w/ mushrooms/red peppers/cucumbers/tomatos
1 dinner roll
about 12 dries apricots
1 c hawthornberry tea
16 o water

-Day 51

2007-09-20T17:23:00.000-04:00

500 ml water
2 mini candy bars
32 oz water

How do I feel: angry, sad, wore out, tired, depressed
No juice-No raw-SAD
It's the 1st one that does it!!!

2 egg rolls
3 crab rangoon
1 slice cheese pizza
sugar doughnuts
vegetable lo mein
raspberry danish
sm vanilla shake

Day 50

2007-09-19T16:06:00.001-04:00

Well, in the last 3 days I have gained back 5 lbs. I have to accept this will come from eating-especially SAD foods. I have been sooo happy with my weight loss, which I think has been aided by adding more juice into my days. Well, I have cleansed. I have released toxins and weight loss has come from this. I am really facing some demons, some from my past that are reoccuring and I have been giving them power to do that. If you know me or don't, please pray for me. Thank you!!!!!
I had a lot of SAD food today-I feel soo ashamed that for once I don't even want to share it.
1 c tea
32 oz water
SAD food.

day 49

2007-09-18T16:35:00.001-04:00

Still eating food. SAD food. :( I have increased anger and decreased glow especially in my skin and hair.
! C mint tea
1 qt grap/romine/celery
32 oz water X2
3 C spinach/cucumber/apple
coffee w/ van creamer

I am quite "unhappy" w/ me right now-made a plan yesterday and didn't get throught it, not even 1 day!!!!
Tomorrow is a new day!!!!!!!

Day 48

2007-09-17T18:00:00.001-04:00

It was hard to get out of bed this morning. I was very groggy and sleepy. I slept for 91/2 hours. I haven't done that in a loooong time!! All that SAD food-proof enough? I have ingested way more juice than I would on any normal day. So, I can look at what I have accomplished: I really wanted to lose weight and I have-17 lbs to date. I am more aware of how SAD affects me and differs from RAW. I see the benefits of raw juices-healthy skin and hair, the "glow", looking more youthful. I have had amazing changes and good things I have learned!! I will consider undertaking the 92-day juice feast when I am prepared to do so, but what I did do, adding juice to my daily intake has been good!!! :-)
1 qt watermelon
jelly beans, cake, cookie, burrito, chips
32 oz water
16 oz van latte
16 oz water
vegetable soup
slice of bread
PB and jelly sandwich

Day 47

2007-09-16T16:02:00.001-04:00

I find myself breaking and starting over on an almost daily basis. I am experiencing more negative feelings with this behavior than positive and I don't feel that should be part of this journey. Today became a "binge" day with food. I ended up with a stomach ache and just wanted to sleep this afternoon.

Today:
2 c almond/fruit tea w/ honey
junk food-van frosting, cheese, sour cream, cake
32 oz water
more junk-pasta and meatballs, cheese, cookies
1 c mint tea
8 oz water

Day 46

2007-09-16T16:01:00.002-04:00

I am like Winnie the Pooh. I just can't get enough honey. Think it is because all I want is "sugar"!!! I am pooh with my hand in the jar of honey. :)

1 c ginger tea w/ honey

3 T honey

32 oz water

1 qt canteloupe

1 handful jelly beans

1 qt spinach/apple/cucumber

12 oz van cappuccino w/ soy (decaf expresso)

16 oz water

3+ T honey

1 c almond/fruit tea

Day 45

2007-09-16T16:01:00.001-04:00

Just a report:

1 c ginger tea w/ honey
2 T honey
1 qt sweet potato/apple/cinnamon/coconut water -YUM!!!
2 T bee pollen
32 oz water
1/2 oz wheatgrass
3+ T honey
20 oz van latte
1 qt watermelon
24 oz water

be blessed!! until tomorrow.....................

Day 44

2007-09-13T21:10:00.001-04:00

I had a thought about my goals and have to admit that my real goal has been to lose weight. That is what I have wanted first and foremost and that I am achieving. It has been an awesome accomplishment and a real achievement for me to get so close to my goal. I am grateful for the weight loss and very happy about it!!! :)

1 C tea w/ honey

32 oz water

16 oz van latte

3 T honey

1 qt lettuce/red pepper/apple/coconut water

1/2 oz wheatgrass

Day 43

2007-09-13T21:09:00.000-04:00

I awoke feeling stuffed and sick and my fingers were swollen. I felt somewhat ill and light-headed. So today it's a JOURNEY into a new day. It is a choice-that I make. What happens from here???1 c blackberry tea w/ honey
1 qt romine/grapes/celery
32 oz water
1 qt pineapple/zuccini
32 oz water
3 T bee pollen
1 qt watermelon

Day 42

2007-09-10T00:24:00.002-04:00

I went to bed late last night-1:30am and was up early-6:15am so I have felt "crabby". I had all that "junk food" and I look tired, and just not the same as I was. I feel I have lost that "glow". My hair and skin seem drier. I'm noticing some breakouts. I am even noticing some body odors which I wasn't getting anymore since begining the jucing. I was reading today that cravings for chocolate may be a feeling of loss of love. I know my hubby loves me and my God loves me, but do "I" love me?

lemon tea-1 1/2 C
honey 2 T
bee pollen 1t
1 qt orange/grapefruit
honey 1 T
decaf coffee w/ soymilk and shot of vanilla
raspberry cocoa mix
1 pt spin/apple/celery
the binge: (cheese,crackers,bread,hot dog(?), pretzels and dip, oat-rasin cookies)

onward, to another day.....................................

Day 41

2007-09-10T00:24:00.001-04:00

Went to Yoga today and I always enjoy it. I feel so good afterwards. Then I put myself into a position of failure. It can be hard for me to go into a grocery store alone. I feel drawn at times to all the junk food that I am so used to "binging" on. I get it in my head early in the day and allow myself to "dwell" on it throughout the day. Unhealthy thoughts, negative thoughts!!!!! I didn't rely or turn to the One who can and will help me. My lack of faith. That is what I did today.

1C apple-cinn tea
3 c canteloupe/peach
1 qt watermelon
1 carmel
2 T bee pollen
hard candies
1/2 tub cho frosting
12 oz water
small handful of grapes
3 handfuls of potato chips
1 pt spin/carrot/red bell pepper/celery

Day 40

2007-09-10T00:23:00.001-04:00

Today was going to start out as a fast day. I think the failure came from not having the right reason for fasting. The juice feast dosen't talk about fasting at all, I just made it a decision of my own. About 1-2 pm I just couldn't quit thinking about sugar, I was craving it-sweets/snacks. I just then gave in and ate-junk.
1 C camomile tea w/ honey
32 oz water
2T honey
32 oz water
2 C apple-cinnamon tea w/ honey
junk: frosting, PB and crackers
1/2 c apple-cinnamon tea

On to a new day..............................

Day 39

2007-09-10T00:18:00.000-04:00

Lack of juice and water. Skin and cuticles are dryer. Face and skin looks less glowing. Well that does prove it. Juice and raw really add "the glow"!!!!! Taking a class this weekend-Homeopathy.

1/2 oz wheatgrass
32 oz water
1 c peppermint tea w/ honey
3 c 1/2 and 1/2 fruit juice from yesterday
2 T bee pollen
3 T honey
32 oz water
3 c spinach/tomato/carrot/cucumber/celery/cayene

Day 38

2007-09-10T00:15:00.000-04:00

Still not enough juice intake. Seems really hard to drink so much lately. Threw things way off with the mixing in of food.

1 c warm water w/lemon
1 c apple cider
2 T honey
32 oz water
3 C 1/2 mango/kiwi/orange/peach and 1/2 water
1/2 oz wheatgrass

Day 37

2007-09-10T00:12:00.000-04:00

More sugar cravings-real strong today. I really think this has happened d/t my eatingsolid foods. And for that matter, my food choices were not good ones either. Still too low of an intake of juice.
Juicy day:
1 c warm water w/ lemon
3 T honey
16,9 oz water
1 qt Master Cleanse
32 oz water
piece of dk chocolate
1 serving pastry puff w/ raspberry fill
32 oz water

Day 36

2007-09-10T00:07:00.000-04:00

Still lots of sweet cravings................

New picture :)
Food today:
1 c peppermint tea w/ honey
1 pint OJ
2 T honey
16.9 oz water
1 c lettuce/cucumber/carrot/beet/celery/apple/fennel bulb/sweetened w/ honey
+ 1 qt of above juice
16 oz peach italian ice
4 M&M's
32 oz water
16 oz water
1/2 c rasin bran
1 qt watermelon

Day 35

2007-09-04T16:10:00.001-04:00

Back to work today. It sure is nice to have a job I enjoy going to. Praying and asking for prayer for my massage business to build and for a home for my hubby and myself to buy so I can set up my studio in it. I really am believing for my job to eventually be just my massage business!!!!!!! I am happy with my weight loss, makes me feel good about myself. I have not been drinking enough water or juice and am getting "hungry" by 5p-6p. Tonight I ate.
Juicy day:
1 c ginger tea w/ honey
16 oz water
1 qt spinach/celery/cucumber/dandelion/apple
handful of rasin bran
16 oz water
sm brownie w/ 1 T PB
3 c squash/apple
1 c mint tea w/ honey
3 t honey

Juice-Day 34

2007-09-04T16:09:00.000-04:00

Today we came home. Hard to leave, but it was a great, long weekend. I really missed my hubby and doggy and kitty too. Definately ready to get home and see them!!! :)
Juicy day:
16 oz water
1 qt orange/peach/watermelon/canteloupe
1/2 qt sw potato/cinnamon/apple
1 oz wheatgrass
8 oz water
1 qt Master Cleanse
16 oz water
3 T bee pollen
2 T honey

Juice-Day 33

2007-09-04T16:05:00.000-04:00

Another beautiful day. Went to the beach, down to the marina, on a trolley ride, and watched the musical dancing fountain. It was a great day!!!
Juicy day:
2 c ginger tea w/ honey
1 qt lettuce/tomato/carrot/parsley/cilantro/dandelion
16.9 oz water
16 oz water
1 qt canteloupe
2 T bee pollen
1/2 oz wheatgrass
3+ T honey
32 oz water
1 c strawberry sorbet
1 c orange tea w/ water

Juice-Day 32

2007-09-04T16:04:00.000-04:00

Ok, I feel "icky" in my tummy this morning. I feel full (like you do after those Thanksgiving meals). On a positive note, it has been 31 days on "mostly" all juice days. I need to look at THAT!! 31 days is a BIG accomplishment, I am NOT a failure b/c I have had some food. Check this out: 31 days, 15 lbs lost, 2" off waist,2" off hips, size 10 to size 8, BMI down from 25 to 22.5, I fit in clothes I haven't wore in 3-5 years!!!
Went to the beach w/ Mom today and soaked up the sun--mmmmmmmmmm!!! Saw family I haven't seen in several years-that was real nice. Watched The Pursuit of Happyness tonight for the 2nd time. I just LOVE that movie. It is FULL of love, selflessness, perserverence, encouragement, and so much more. It is definately my currrent favorite. Go rent it if you have not seen it yet!!!
Juicy day:
1 1/2 c camomile tea w/ honey
32 oz water
16.9 oz water
1 qt orange/peach
1/2 oz wheatgrass
1 c mint tea w/ honey
1 T bee pollen
6 T honey
1 qt canteloupe/romine/cucumber
16 oz water

Juice-Day 31

2007-08-31T08:47:00.003-04:00

Well hello again. I have gotten wayyyyy behind on posting. I went away for the Labor Day weekend and then didn't get anything posted at all during the week. Soooo, I will follow this post with another 9 days worth to catch up. :) All I can say today is to stay away from triggers. Tonight I left for our cottage in Michigan with my Mom and Mother-in-law. Yeah, my 1st time up this year.I love it up at the cottage. It is going to be a beautiful weekend!!! Have all my fruits and vegs and juicer packed.
Juice today (and "other" stuff):
1 c camomile tea w/ honey
1 1/3 c mouse (milk and mouse mix)
1 qt watermelon
32 oz water
1 T Barleans greens in 16.9 oz water
1 T greens in 16.9 oz water
32 oz water
vegetable soup
4 G.S.-samoas cookies
2 oat-rasin cookies
5 T PB
1 c cherry-berry tea w/ honey

Juice-Day 30

2007-08-31T08:47:00.001-04:00

Today I endured yet another stomach ache for a short while when I deceided to eat brownie batter. OK, removing myself from these foods and not making excuses to "make" them or be around them would be a good idea!!!!!! I have note cards with my goals and many bible references to food and eating to count on. Most of all I have Jesus. Pastor preached last night about not relying on Him to help me but GIVING it to him to do for me-that is faith!!!!!!!!!!!!
Juicy day:
16.9 oz water
1 qt orange/peach/nectarine (yum!!!)
32 oz water
1 qt leaf lettuce/tomato/carrot/celery/cilantro/cayene/flax oil/italian seasoning
1 mint
brownie mix (about 7+ T)
1 qt watermelon
32 oz water

Juice-Day 29

2007-08-31T08:46:00.001-04:00

I was noticing today that my skin is more supple and heals much quicker. My cuticles are much smoother and much less cracked like they usually are. Althought I have had food, I am noticing more "control" over food.
Juicy day:
32 oz water
1 qt watermelon
2 T bee pollen
1/2 qt cucumber/celery/dandelion/apple
1 sm cho chip cookie
2 T peanut butter
1 T barleans greens in 16.9 oz water
2 T p.b.
1 sm c.c. cookie
32 oz water
2 T p.b. ok, NOW I have a stomach ache-wayyyy tooooo much P.B.

until tomorrow... a new day....................:)

Juice-Day 28

2007-08-31T08:44:00.000-04:00

I have noticed today and yesterday that I have underarm odor. I have not even had to wear deodorant for the last several weeks (I think d/t the juice and reducing the "junk/toxins" in my body). I wonder if it is d/t the antiobiotics? Hummmmm?????? Got my tooth pulled today. Feeling better!! Still a bit swollen and sore from the pulling :)
Juicy day:
1 c apple-cranberry tea w/ stevia
1 C watermelon
1/2 oz wheatgrass
1 1/4 c cucumber/greenbean/apple/dandelion
32 oz water
2 T bee pollen
1/2 oz wheatgrass
1 sm cho chip cookie :(
1 T bee pollen
16.9 oz water
1 c frozen blueberries blended in food processor

I need to increase my water intake......................
Blessings until tomorrow

Juice-Day 27

2007-08-27T17:46:00.001-04:00

I stayed home sick today because of my tooth. I am still on the antiobiotics (for a week). As much as I dislike them, I have quite the swollen mouth and feel that now the benefits outweigh the risks of not taking them. Anyways, I can see the changes that will happen when I DON'T eat any food (especially the "junk" that I choose when I do)!!
Juicy day:
1 T bee pollen
1 C watermelon
16 oz water
1 qt spinach/tomato/med hot pepper/cilantro/fennel/cucumber
32 oz water
2 T bee pollen
1/2 cookie
1 c apple-cranberry tea w/ stevia
3 c watermelon
8 oz water

Juice-Day 26

2007-08-26T20:16:00.000-04:00

Today has been a "painful" day. I hardly got any sleep last night and when I awoke this morning I had "chipmunk" cheek. After an emergency call to my dentist, she put me on an antiobiotic for the infection and motrin and acetaminophen for the pain. I don't like antiobiotics but in this case, I conceded. (It was Sunday, and I feel I was at my pain tolerance level) I will check and find out a substitute for the antiobiotics for if I or someone I know encounters this again.
It was oneof those "I just want to be comforted" days. I did get some sleep in the afternoon and that felt good!!! :) Also, I am down 16 lbs!!!!!
Juicy day:
1 c camomile tea
2 c watermelon
16 oz water
2 T bee pollen
1 qt watermelon
32 oz water
1 sm cho chip cookie (uh,oh)
3 T peanut butter (uh, oh) :) comforting foods
1 c spinach/tomato/cilantro/cucumber/med hot pepper/flax oil
16 oz water

Much peace and love until tomorrow......................... :)

Juice-Day 25

2007-08-26T20:15:00.000-04:00

Today I went to the Fresh Market with a friend and bought all types of fresh organic fruits and veggies. I love that store!!! I went to a new yoga class in the morning. I really enjoy yoga. I feel so stretched and elongated afterwards.
On the way to the Fresh Market I began to experience a tothache. It is painful and I notice some swelling. It is a tooth that has been broken for several months now. I wonder if the juicing or even the wheatgrass has brought this about, wanting to "heal" this area and get the sickness (bad tooth) out.
I also started my cycle today and have observed only 1 or 2 pimples and they were hardly noticable. I can only remember 1 day in the last week were I had some "anger". My husband confirms that. Yeah!!! Juicing has made a change.
Juicy day:
1/2 c camomile tea
1 c orange tea
1/2 qt master cleanse
32 oz water
2 c orange juice
1 qt apple/cucumber
8 oz water

Juice-Day 24

2007-08-24T12:58:00.001-04:00

Today was a good day-found a veggie combo I really like!! I got some wheatgrass and tried it for the first time today. It actually tasted better than I expected. My health food store ordered it for me from http://www.evergreenjuices.com/ .
Juicy day:
1/2 c camomile tea
1 qt lettuce/tomato/celery/cucumber/cilantro/banana pepper/cayene/flax oil
32 oz water
1 oz wheatgrass
16 oz camomile tea w/ peach flavor
32 oz water
1 qt canteloupe/watermelon
1 c "salad" juice (from above)
10 oz water

Juice Day 23

2007-08-24T12:57:00.001-04:00

Here I am....day 23!!!!! I believe one thing I have been neglecting has been the recommended, regular enemas. I really feel I need that for some cleansing and change. A clean colon is a healthy colon (that IS where so much disease can start). I have also found that some days a juice tastes real good (green kinds) and others, the same combo doesn't. I am thinking my body knows what it needs and that may be the reason for the liking or disliking. So, there is a change for me-being more in tune to what my body needs and is telling me.
Juicy day:
1 1/2 c zuccini/spinach/celery/cilantro
1 c lettuce/celery/cucumber/dandelion/apple
1 cookie ("say no, say no, I want it!!" I was weak, I chose it, weakness in the flesh-and it didn't even taste that good, 30 min later I felt dizzy-maybe from the sugar.)
32 oz water
1 qt lettuce/celery/cucumber/dandelion/apple
32 oz water
11 oz water
1/2 qt Master Cleanse

Juice-Day 22

2007-08-22T18:20:00.001-04:00

I keep looking for the "life-changing" events. Maybe I am looking too hard. :) I definately feel different. I feel healthier, more alert. I still want about the same amount of sleep. I'll keep on with the juice and see what happens.
Juicy day:
1 c peppermint tea w/ honey
2/3 c zuccini/spinach/cilantro/celery/apple
3 c lettuce/tomato/carrot/dandelion/pepper
1 qt zuccini/spinach/cilantro/celery/apple
32 oz water
32 oz water
3 c watermelon
8 oz water

Juice-Day 21

2007-08-21T16:33:00.000-04:00

Here's some pics from day 1 vs day 21. :)

Got to share with a friend tonight about juicing. She is trying to lose weight. She was saying "i can't do it", but after some encouragement she said she could do it for 21 days. I know she can, it's just new to her and she was quite enthused about the fact of the weight loss possibilities and what I've lost. Keep her in prayer!!!!!!
Juicy day:
1 c camomile tea
1 qt zuccini/pineapple
1 T bee pollen
32 oz water
1 qt spinach/dandelion/apple
3 t fresh salsa
cho icing off of hubby's cake
32 oz water
1 T bee pollen
2 T honey

Juice -Day 20

2007-08-20T23:16:00.001-04:00

Today was a new day. I felt "light", somewhat in a transition phase. I went to a cardio class and a yoga class. Both were good. I can tell since last working out there and seeing myself in the workout room mirrors, that my body has changed.
Juice today:
1/2 c earl grey tea
32 oz water
1/2 c camomile tea w/ lemon
1 T bee pollen
32 oz water
1 T bee pollen
making cornbread casserole for a church function and ate 3 spoonfuls of the mix
1 qt watermelon
32 oz water

Juice-day 19

2007-08-19T21:51:00.000-04:00

Today is not a "proud" day for me on myjourney, but it has been a learning experience on the road of life and I must remember that. I put off blogging yesterday because I was feeling like a failure and didn't want to share. But, I will share, because that is the promise I made to myself, to be hanest and remain honest and know that I make mistakes but God still loves me all the same with the GREATEST of all love. He wraps His arms around me and consoles me. :) Here is my story of day 19:
1/3 qt watermelon
500 ml water
1 1/2 c camomile tea w/ honey
1 qt 8 in 1 greens (yuck, I don't like this brand, may be ok in a smoothie, I'll have to try later)
I went to Mom and Dad's to visit with Dad (he's bacheloring it for 2 weeks) and he offered me raspberry danish. I could have said many respoinses of "no" but I "didn't want to make him feel bad" (my little girl thing) and honestly used it as an excuse to really eat what my thoughts have been obsessively craving for the last several days. I ate :
1 1/2 pieces of raspberry danish
then I thought, "oh well I ate now", and ate:
1 hostess cup cake
2 fig newtons
1/2 c maccaroni salad
then I felt so guilty about eating that I purged it all.
Then I went home and did it again:
500 ml water
500 ml water
sugar wafers(at least 10)
chips and dip
roll w/ crean cheese
500 ml water
purged it all.....
Now what? Do I start from day 1,blah, blah, blah!!! No, I set new goals:
1. get a partner
2. DON'T beat myself up!! continue with the juice, it is still day 19.
3. rely on Jesus for strength and receive it from him!

Know what else, nothing was that good, no good taste, it was just the "act" of binging all that junk that has to be tied to personal self esteem. I was reading that personal self-esteem should be the 2nd priority in your life only 2nd to your relationship with God because without self-esteem, you can't give love and have prosperity in your other relationships and areas of your life. I can see this is very true for me!! My self-esteem is low and I tend to get "cocky" and try to fool myself that it is not.Well, that's my story for the day.
Peace and love until the next sunrise........................

Juice-Day 18

2007-08-18T11:51:00.001-04:00

A day at a time. I'm still struggling with binge obsession. I went to a youth group gathering tonight at a beautiful 130 acre ranch. My husband's band played. I brough all my juice and that went well. See, you can be on the go and juice. :) Still feeling good about my body, still losing a bit of weight, it has slowed down now. I have to admit that I am really over doing the bee pollen and honey. Eating honey from the jar is not recommended. I am probably consuming more than I even think and document. I should deter this, it may be part of what is triggering my junk food obsession.
Juicy day:
1 c peppermint tea
1 T bee pollen
500 ml water
375 ml water
1 qt spinach/romine/carrot/apple w/ 11 oz coconut water
500 ml water
1 qt master cleanse
500 ml water
1 qt spinach/romine/carrot/apple
2 T bee pollen
1 T honey (or more)
2/3 qt watermelon

Peace and love until tomorrow..............................

Day 17

2007-08-18T11:50:00.000-04:00

Today I have been VERY binge obsessed. I keep thinking and playying a junk food binge of all the junk I always loved to eat. It's like an addict planning their next fix. It can be so easy to just hang on to these obsessions, even when I know that HE is greater than all of it.
I went to the Fresh Market today. It is in another town so I don't get there often. I got great deals on all organic produce...get choices. Yeah!!!!!
Juice today:
250 ml water
1 c peppermnt tea w/ honey
1 qt zuccini/pineapple
500 ml water
1 qt celery/cucumber/apple
500 ml water
500 ml water
1 qt cantaloupe
500 ml water
1 T flax oil
2 T bee pollen
1 C peppermint tea

day 16

2007-08-16T16:19:00.001-04:00

Today I ate a pece of hard candy (probably NOT a good idea) and it tasted soooo sweet! Way sweeter than I remember hard candy being. Hmmmm, the taste buds changing. My body is feeling much less and even looking much less "puffy". That's nice :) I see today as the end of juice "feasting". I ate food....I am not following the guidelines now so another time, when I am ready, I will follow. i'll keep getting in as much juice as possible (and write on this)-it IS good!!!!! :)
Today's juice:
1 c camomile tea w/ honey
1 T bee pollen
500 ml water
500 ml water
1 qt green bean/apple/lettuce/parsley
500 ml water
2/3 qt cantaloupe
500 ml water
1 qt Master Cleanse
250 ml water
2 T bee pollen
2 T honey
1 T flax oil

Happy days :-) ....................................................

Juice Feast-Day 15

2007-08-16T16:16:00.001-04:00

Today I went to the Farmer's Market and got some great deals on fresh produce-Yeah!!! I love that. Tonight at church a friend of mine brought me a small piece of raw cheesecake she made for the first time from a receipe I had given her. I ate it minus the bite my husband tried. It was real good. I was thinking after that I could feel guilty, beat myself up over it, etc., etc., etc., but why? It was one piece and I chose to eat it and it was RAW. God doesn't want me to be a perfectionist. I am not perfect and must accept that about myself. Tonight in the message it was said that if you are trying to be perfect you will be disappointed!! That was a message for me. So, the cheesecake was ok, and it was yummy!!!! Oh, by the way, about an hour later I learned why there is a juice feasting protocol. I had about 15 to 20 minutes of pain in my stomach. So, a note, it was koay to eat but remember what happened and follow the protocol or just continue to juice for the health reason!!!!!!! :)
Juicy Day:
500 ml water
1 T bee pollen
1 qt red leaf lettuce/cucumber/apple
500 ml water
1 qt cantelope
500 ml water
500 ml water
1 sm piece raw cheesecake
500 ml water
1 c camomile tea w/ honey
1 T bee pollen
1 T honey

Juice Feast-Day 14

2007-08-14T15:36:00.000-04:00

Today I found myself quite "moody" probably d/t so much sugar (honey) yesterday. I have been obsessed with thinking about sugary, junk foods and prayed to be freed from the obsession tonight. I felf it lifted from me. I am not going to take it back!!!! :)
Juicy day:
375 ml water
1 T bee pollen
1 qt Master Cleanse(water, honey, lemon, cayene)
500 ml water
1 qt tomato w/ flax oil/oregano/thyme
500 ml water
1 1/2 c camomile tea w/ stevia
500 ml water
1 qt watermelon
500 ml water
2 T honey
1 T bee pollen

Juice Feast-Day 13

2007-08-13T16:54:00.000-04:00

I had quite a bit of honey today. Not a real part of the juice feast. I was really craving suger. I find there is so much mental for me. When I am around fast food places or go into grocery stores I get the "cravings" for the junk food from my past. I think more bulk purchases of greens when I have to get them from the grocery store may help more now. Less trips to places that I associate with past food addictions may be helpful right now. God gets me through. He is good!!!
Juicy day:
300 ml water
1 c peppermint tea w/ stevia
1 qt gr bean/spinach/zuccini/apple
2 T bee pollen
3 T honey
1 qt 1/3 watermelon/2/3 Barleans greens (1T) in water
500 ml water
2 T bee pollen
500 ml water
2T honey
1 qt watermelon
500 ml water
1 C peppermint tea w/ honey

Juice Feast-Day 12

2007-08-12T21:36:00.001-04:00

I just had a realization--I AM RAW!!!!!!!!! Yeah!!!! Juicing brought me to being raw. Ok, it is obvious, but it just really hit me-12 days, juicing and raw. I see a big difference in my attitude and being more accepting, kind, loving, and happy. I also notice I look slimmer, flatter stomach.
Juicy day:
1 c genmicha tea w/ honey
500 ml water
1 c orange spice tea
500 ml water
1 qt gr bean/red pepper/cucumber/broccli/apple
1 c camomile tea w/ honey
1 t bee pollen
1/4 t kelp
1 pt cantaloupe
11 oz coconut water
500 ml water
1 c camomile tea w/ honey
200 ml water

Juice Feast-Day 11

2007-08-12T21:35:00.000-04:00

Today my husband's band played at a youth fest that was in a pole building that was not air conditioned. It was quite hot out, 90's, but I didn't find myself sweating or very uncomfortable. I wondered, since most everyone else was, if my juicing and being raw juice had an affect on that? My guess is "yes"!!
Juicy day:
500 ml water
500 ml water
1 qt Barlean's greens
800 ml water
1 qt spinach/romine/apple
1 qt watermelon
500 ml water
500 ml water
2 T bee pollen
1/2 t kelp
1 t flax oil
1 c genmicha tea w/ honey

Juice Feast-Day 10

2007-08-11T09:38:00.000-04:00

I don't know what else to say, but I am really loving jucing. So much fun to create different juices and see what I like. I was running errands and was around the area of town (of course I now notice they are everywhere) where there are a lot of fast food restaurants. I really got a craving for "junk" food. It was such an acomplishment to get past it knowing that God was the one helping me. With Him all things are possible!!!!!!
Juicy day:
2 c camomile tea w/ honey
1 qt spinach/romine/zuccini/apple
375 ml water
1 qt watermelon
800 ml water
1/4 t kelp
1 pt watermelon mixed w/ 1 pt barleans greens in water
800 ml water
1 qt watermelon
1 T bee pollen
1 c camomile tea w/ 2 T honey

Juice Feast-Day 9

2007-08-09T22:10:00.000-04:00

I seem to look thinner in my face. I sure have to got to the bathroom a lot!!!! :) ---all that liquid. I'm not having any "major" detox symptoms that I notice. I am having daily bowel movements that are "soft". The juice feast recommends regular enemas to "keep things going" so I need to get more regular with them. I've only done a few since the start. It is important to keep things moving out of our bodies that don't need to be there. Other than that, I just get the "fuzzy" teeth, so I have started to carry a toothbrush. :)
Happy news from Angela Stokes (who introduced me to Juice Feasting) you can see it on her blog at http://www.rawreform.com/ , she got engaged!!!! Congrats Angela and Matt!!!!
Juicy day:
1 c camomille tea w/ honey
1 T bee pollen
1/4 t kelp
1 qt celery/cucumber/carrot/broccli/green and red pepper/tomato
375 ml water
1 qt muskmelon
800 ml water
2 T bee pollen
500 ml water
1 qt of same as above veg juice w/apple and pear added
500 ml water

Juice Feast-Day 8

2007-08-08T21:52:00.001-04:00

Last night I had a dream that I ate and I felt real bad in the dream. It could have also been due to the fact that a friend made her first raw cheesecake and said she'd bring me some. I figured I could wrap it up and freeze it until the end of this feast (ok, I am thinking about one bite first, we'll see). It seems like my hair looks better. I went to the farmers market and got some great, local, non-sprayed (I say this because I am not sure if it fits all the "organic criteria", but I appreciate that it is local and non-sprayed) fruits and vegetables. :) I really enjoy the farmer's market. I just wish we had a larger one here. Ours is 3 days a week with about 7 or so vendors.
I sure appreciate their loyalty in being there!!
Juicy day:
1C decaf earl grey tea w/ honey
1 qt celery/spinach/romine/broccli/apple
800 ml water
500 ml water
1 T bee pollen
1/4 t kelp
1 qt celery/spinach/romine/broccli/apple/coconut water
1 T bee pollen
1 c tea w/ (lots of) honey
800 ml water
375 ml water

peace and love...............................

Juice Feast-Day 7

2007-08-07T14:34:00.001-04:00

I feel lighter today and kinder. Things that may even start a spark of anger easily is changed around. Not noticing any detox symptoms today. Juicing is going well
1 qt spinach/romine/apple (yum!!!!)
800 mlwater
1 t bee pollen
800 ml water
1 qt watermelon
500 ml water
1 T bee pollen
1/4 t kelp
1 qt Barlean's greens in water
1 c water
1 c Tazo "calm" tea w/ honey

Juice Feast-Day 6

2007-08-06T10:59:00.001-04:00

I feel more clear today, more in touch. Like my body/mind is reaching out to new awarenesses. I look at my arms and hands and they seem longer. Are they?? I'm not sure about that, but it is probably because my body is changing and detoxing and is "feeling" different due to that. I am really enjoying Yoga-it's been great for stretching and strengthing as well as a good meditation time to get back into talking with the Lord.
500 ml water
1 T bee pollen
1/4 t kelp
1 qt kale/leaf lettuce/pineapple
1 qt muskmelon
500 ml water
500 ml water
375 ml water
1 T bee pollen
1 T flax oil
1 qt watermelon
500 ml water

much peace and love......................................

Juice Feast- Day 5

2007-08-06T10:51:00.001-04:00

This morning I feel more clear, alert. I am more able to follow another in conversation vs. checking out within 1-2 minutes. I'm still not getting in the 1 gallon of juice a day...I wonder what effects this has on the feast? I'm going to try to get some answers on this.

1 qt kale/romine/apple (yum, I like this one a lot)
800 ml water
1 t bee pollen
1/4 t kelp
500 ml water
375 ml water
1 qt Barleans greens (4T) in water
1 qt watermelon juice

Juice Feast-Day 4

2007-08-04T22:11:00.001-04:00

I felt as though I had some "awe" type moments of clarity today..hard to explain, just this feeling of clearness and awe. In the evening I had some real angry, rage feelings. My sweet, supportive spouse got the worst of it. The anger concerns him, he thinks I have become more "mean" this last week. I need to examine and pray about this. I don't want everyone to "suffer" from my juice feast. I think it is more that I need to talk to the Lord and get into His word to give me strength and an improved attitude. It is a choice I can make-pretty simple. I don't feel that the juicing is necessarily making me mean. I think it is my choices and attitude. I haven't felt hunger since Day 2.
If you will.keep my in prayer on this(improved attitude)....
peace and love......

1/2 c peppermint tea
1 t beepollen
1 qt kale/romine/cucumber/green pepper/grapefruit
800 ml water
500 ml water
1 t bee pollen
1/4 t kelp
1 qt kale/apple
375 ml water

Juice Feast-Day 3

2007-08-03T16:27:00.001-04:00

I had a headache this morning, but it was gone by the PM. I felt throughout the day a pressure behind my eyes but it wasn't painful. I got tired again by the evening, I am guessing I am not getting enough juice in still and am lacking nourishment. Adding some different "additions" as well. It's just one day at a time!! I sure appreciate Angela Stokes putting the comment from Mark from the juice feasters page about taking your juice feast one day at a time. It comes to me every day and helps give me strength. Thanks Angela and Mark!!!!!!!
1 c peppermint tea
1 qt watermelon/cucumber/green pepper/broccli/celery
1 T bee pollen
1 1/2 qt zuccini/romine/pineapple
water: 800 ml
800 ml
500 ml
Barleans greens in 500 ml water
1 T bee pollen
1/2 c honey camomile tea w/ raw honey

much peace and love........................

Juice Feast- Day 2

2007-08-02T13:47:00.001-04:00

Today I awoke feeling like I can't drink juice. It's weird because when I made and drank it, it tasted good to me. It was just the thought. Like I am detoxing and it's in my thoughts "stop". Hmmmm, I'm going to ponder that some more. I experienced a bit of a headache. Caffiene getting out, I don't doubt. I also got a massage tonight from the lovely Jennica. Ahhhhhh...awesome!! I went and did cardio class before that. I felt a bit tired at midday, but I feel that was due to a lack of juice and nourishment.
1 c peppermint tea
1 qt of 1/2 and 1/2 leftover juice from yesterday
1 T flax oil
1 qt watermelon juice
water: 375 ml X3
800 ml
500 ml
2 T bee pollen (YUM!!! I never ate been pollen before)

Juice Feasting-Day 1

2007-08-01T11:48:00.001-04:00

Yeah!!! Made it through Day 1 of juice feasting. It was difficult consuming the 1 gallon of juice, only got down 1/2 gallon and just over 1/2 gallon of water throughout the day. I experienced occasional headaches (from no caffiene??), had hunger around 1 pm, felt pretty tired around 8pm and also somewhat nauseous. Otherwise, it felt real good doing good for my body and accomplishing day 1!! :)
1 1/2 Qt juice: cabbage, celery, cucumber, kale, apple, beet
1/2 Qt juice: orange, watermelon, carrot
water: 375ml X3, 800 ml

Until tomorrow.......much peace and happyness :)

Cleaning house...fridge

2007-07-31T22:20:00.000-04:00

Today I have been cleaning all my "edible" food from the house. I have deceided to juice feast. I will begin on Aug 1-tomorrow. I made a list of goals for the fast and will be kind to myself and not critical during the feast. I will work hard to honor my body and what it wants and not "beat myself up" over anything I do. It is not my ordinary way of thinking, but I am accepting that I don't treat myself with love. Thank you Connie for you kind and loving comments. You have given me courage!!
07.30.07
1 c coffee w/ van creamer
1 oz dk chocolate
800 ml water
800 ml water
grapes and cherries*
500 ml water
800 ml water
1 candy bar
2 T peanutbutter
saltines
1 bowl Kalmut flakes w/ soymilk

07.31.07
1 c coffee
1 c cacao/almond/honey/gogi berri
chow mein (ate 3 bites of the chicken in it)
over white rice
yams and apples
gingerbread cookie
15 oz Naked green juice
800 ml water
800 mlwater
gogi berries
popcorn
800 ml water
3/4 of 9.8 oz cheese pizza
4 pop tarts
bowl of ice cream
375 ml water
avocado w/ lime and dulse

Weight gain......

2007-07-30T10:59:00.000-04:00

After several days of not good food choices, I have added back on 2 lbs. That was to be expected though. It's hard to share that. I have wanting to do a juice "feast" and I have this way of not looking at things "just for today", but as a "Oh it will be this long. Oh, I won't be eating and I better get in all the junk :) I can before then." Definately not healthy to approach it this way. My last several days of food choices really reflect this. If you want to know about juice feasting you can check out the following websites: www.rawreform.com www.juicefeasting.com I will let you know what happens next :) Do I seen real "twisted" with the way I eat yet have this passion for nutrition????????

07.27.07
1/2 c teechino w/ van stevia and soy milk
1 oat rasin cookie
1/2 c peppermint tea
500 ml water
500 ml water
1 taco bell cheese quesedella
1 bean burrito w/ sour cream
2 lg frosted sugar cookies
500 ml water
*feeling quite ill from what I just ate, the body just can't handle this abuse, but it amazingly does, it is very forgiving,maybe I should consider treating it right!?!
500 ml water
sm handful almonds
4 pkgs of pb bars
1 c mac and cheese
1 fig

07.28.07
1 c coffee w/ van creamer
1 L water
1/3 veggie quesedella
chips and dip
1 L water
1 12 oz van latte
1 chai tea luna bar
9 figs
800 ml water
1/3 leftover quesedella
almond/cacao/honey* (I love this stuff!!)

07.29.07
2 c coffee w/ van creamer
cranberry-ginger granola bar
chai tea luna bar
500 ml greens in water*
1.5 L water
800 ml water
chips and salsa
16 oz juice* (celery/carrot/orange/beet)
6 snack cakes
3 candy bars
1/3 leftover quesedella

In need of support.............

2007-07-26T22:31:00.000-04:00

I realize that after posting for awhile that I forgot my real reason for starting this blog..to be accountable for what I eat, to convert to raw, and to get support to do it. (an effort to get honest, real and raw). I have begun to feel like I am all knowing and wise and I am NOT!!! Actually, today I just gave in to my food addiction and as I got home from my grocery store and fast food run, I sat feeling sick to my stomach and defeated. Prayer, I am not having any faith that this can be any different. It can. God can and will give me the strength to overcome, but I need support as well.

So I am here asking for it. Any kind..your experiences, a good swift dose of reality thrown at me. I felt in my spirit as I was typing this that some of what I need to get real about is why I want to go raw. I think some of my struggles are that I want to be stick skinny vs. being healthy and a healthy weight. I am not accepting myself as I am, as God loves me. And, I just give up...the "oh well, I care about it later attitude" or the "I know I don't want to go and binge..I know I don't have to...oh well..I give in and up......Help!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

07.26.07

1 c coffee w/ van reamer
2 c coffee w/ soy milk and van stevia
1/2 raw food bar
smoothie* (banana/orange/strawberries/green powder/water)
500 ml water
1.5 oz dk cho bar
1 L water
veg burger* w/ tomato* and green garlic dressing
500 ml water
3 sugar cookies
2 oatmeal rasin cookies
500 ml water
500 ml water
4 cho chip cookies
1 corn on cob*
500 ml water
1 lg creme puff
5 slices cheese
1 med order onion rings
500 ml water
1 c water

Water.......

2007-07-26T11:26:00.000-04:00

07.26.07
I have really noticed a change in my body since I have been drinking much larger quantities of water-even without omitting the "unhealthy" foods. Now, I am not saying this to say, drink water and eat unhealthy. What I am talking about here is how GOOD water is for us and how much our bodies need it to hydrate, heal and detox. So, if you don't drink much water now, I challenge you to increase it and tell me how you feel and what results you see. (I wonder the changes I would see by omitting the "unhealthy" foods!?!)

07.23.07
2 C coffee w/ wh. cho. rasp. creamer
1.5 L water
smoothie* (2 bananas/kale/watermelon/romine/water)
500 ml water
1 cho chip cookie
5 bean soup
500 ml water
apricot and almond fruit and nut bar
grapes and cherries*
1 L water
potato chips
2 sm doughnuts
1 sm slice cheesecake
cho chip ice cream

07.24.07
1 c coffee w/ van. creamer
1 L water
2 soft tacos w/ beans/rice/lettuce/tomato/guacamole/salsa
chips and salsa*
20 oz van latte w/ soy
1 piece "Betty's" cake
1 L water
1 banana
1 sm doughnut
truscuits and wheat thins
500 ml water
1 soft taco (above)
1 LG piece "Betty's" cake
500 ml water

07.25.07
2 c coffee w/ van. creamer
smoothie* (watermelon/strawberry/banana/romine/kale/gr powder)
1 L water
corn on cob*
sm handful of blueberry granola
1/3 of 3.5oz dark cho bar
1 L water
cranberry-ginger granola bar
1 1/2 C coscous
tomatoes/cucumbers/gr peppers/gr beans)
nut bar
1 L water
a few cherries*
2 cheese quesadillas
a couple crackers
cho chip ice cream
8 oz water

until next time..water,water,water..it's soo good for you..............................

Support from the outside

2007-07-22T23:16:00.000-04:00

On Saturday we went to my Mom and Dad's. Mom knows I haven't been eating meat. I also shared with her some about raw foods and how I am trying to incorporate as much raw into my meals as I can. She cooked a meal, but also put out raw fruits and vegs for me!!! How awesome. By just sharing she did what she could to support. It goes to show me that we can get support even from outside a raw community by those who are supportive family and friends!!!!

I was having a "cindy created technical" error :) and didn't get a few days on my last post, so my apoligizes for the long list of my food diary.

07.17.07

1 c coffee
smoothie* (banana/blueberry/water/green powder/aloe vera juice)
2 oz walnuts*
500 ml water
1 protein bar (80% raw)
500 ml water
split pea soup
lara bar* (cherry pie)
8 oz water
500 ml water
sm bowl of cacao nibs/ground almonds and raw honey*-OH MY!!!! This is exquisite :)

07.18.07
1 c coffee w/ van stevia and soymilk
16 oz smoothie* (watermelon/banana/aloe vera juice/green powder)
cacao/ground almonds/rasins/seeds/honey*
500 ml water
green beans* w/ flax oil, balsamic vinegar and cayene
2 carrots*
500 ml water
4 cookies
500 ml water
2 toasted cheese sandwiches
chips and dip
*here is where the "emotional" breakdown came.....

07.19.07
1/2 c coffee
smoothie* (banana/watermelon/aloe juice/green powder)
500 ml water
out to lunch w/ coworkers for my b-day:
portabella mushroom sandwich w/ spinach/tomato/mozzerella cheese on bun
fruit-melon/pineapple*
1/2 ice cream oreo dessert
8 oz water
1/2 peach*
500 ml water
500 ml water
candy bar
3 scoops cho chip ice cream

07.20.07

1 c coffee w/ van creamer
500 ml water
500 ml water
coconut/banana/cacao ice cream*
500 ml water
1 corn on cob*
cherries and grapes*
500 ml water
spinach (cooked and seasoned w/ bacon bits)
veg-rice soup
1/2 c instant hazelnut coffee
500 ml water
--I have felt very "light" today w/ all the water--
500 ml water
2 sm doughnuts
greens bar (90% raw)
3 scoops cho chip ice cream
8 oz water

07.21.07

1 c coffee w/ van creamer
500 ml water
500 ml water
500 ml water
smoothie* (romine/kale/banana/strawberries/coconut aloe vera juice/water)
500 ml water
1 corn on cob*
green beans*
gr peppers/cucumber/tomato*
watermelon/cantalope/red grapes*
1 piece of crusty white bread
2 c coffee w/ wh cho raspberry creamer
1 slice cheesecake w/ strawberries
3 bites lemon meringue pie

07.22.07 **Happy Birthday**

weigh-in today-I haven't lost, but haven't gained either!!! Has to be the added exercise and recent addition of more water.

2 c coffee w/ van creamer
1.5 L water
1 sm scoop mint oreo frozen yogurt
romine* and orange tomato* w/ dill soy dressing
1 corn on cob*
green beans* and cucumbers*
grapes and cherries*
500 ml water
1 slice cheese pizza
1 slice lemon meringue pie
500 ml water
1 piece cheesecake
1 mini doughnut
2 c tea-african roobis
ab 15-20 triscuits

Loving ourselves from the inside out

2007-07-22T22:48:00.000-04:00

Hello and blessings to all. Today is my birthday-41. Wow, it has been a glorious day...actually past two days. I've gotten behind in writing so I am going to catch up today with 2 posts so my food logs isn't reallll lllooonnnggg. :)

On the 18th I had an emotional fallout. It was short and brief but after my evening sugar and carb binge I just felt cold and empty inside and I welled up with tears and felt like I just wanted to roll up into a ball in the corner. Then I had to realize and accept what I chose to eat. I also had to realize that loving myself isn't about what I eat. Yes, I DO believe it makes a difference, but loving myself needs to come from the inside out, not the outside in!!!! I really think when I don't do that, I stress and it contributes to holding fat.

So, that is my birthday wish and goal-to love me from the inside out!!!

Goals and Support

2007-07-17T11:19:00.000-04:00

It's been several days since I have posted and I was just reading Inspiredraw's blog. Thanks Inspired!!!!!! It was reminding me about the goals I set for myself(I was reading that she did that too-Good Job. YEAH!!) and how I haven't looked them over in many days. I also have not read other's blogs who are on this path too. I have broken my support chain. I now have clear vision as to why (which you will soon witness) I have gone into the land of sugar addiction over the last couple of days. I have forgotten my goals and my support. It is like being close and in relationship with God. He is always there but when we don't talk and communicate (pray) with Him, we break the love chain and get lost in ourselves.
One thing that has somewhat amazed me is when I stepped on the scale on Sunday, I hadn't gained any weight. It must be the added exercise, that's all I can figure.
Just an update, I never made it to Indy this weekend. I have car problems on the way down Fri night. It was like a blessing though. A good friend of mine came and got me and we got to spend all day Saturday together while my car was being repaired. Blessings come from situations we least expect. :)
Food update:
07.12.07
1 1/2 c coffee w/ van creamer
16oz juice (celery/cucumber/beet/coconut water/aloe vera juice)*
1 corn on cob*
1 c white rice
500 ml water
1 pt mixed blueberries and cherries*
7 pecan shortbread cookies
3 doughnuts
(ok, now I feel ill)
1 qt water

07.13.07
1 1/2 c coffee w/ soymilk and van stevia
16 oz van latte w/ soymilk
500 ml water
lg handful cherries*
1 qt water
1 vegie burger w/ tomato*
and green garlic dressing
500 ml water
16 oz van latte

07.14.07
1 c coffee w/ stevia
1 whole wheat nutty pancake
1 egg
12 oz van latte
1/2 greens bar (90% raw)
1 corn on cob*
salad*
cauliflower (steamed)
500 ml water
500 ml water
4 cookies (lg)
32 oz water

07.15.07
2 c coffee w/ van creamer
1 apricot*
1 peach*
1/2 greens bar*
zuccini pasta* w/ Newman's mushroom marinara sauce
1/4 c wild rice
500 ml water
6 frosted shortbread cookies
some potato chips and crackers
Mac and cheese
500 ml water
1 snickerdoodle cookie

07.16.07
1 c coffee w/ van stevia and soymilk
16oz van latte
2 oz walnuts*
2 blueberry muffins
500 ml water
1 corn on cob*
2 oz walnuts*
6 cookies
1 fiesta burrito
med onion rings
500 ml water
1/2 c camomile tea w/ honey

Peace and Happyness to all..................................

Nobody's fault but mine.....

2007-07-13T16:38:00.000-04:00

Sugar..sugar...sugar. Well, the last two days have had quite a bit of icky..refined..sugar in them. My choice though. Noone's fault, but mine. Remember that Led Zeppelin song where sexy Robert Plant sings "nobody's fault but mine..."? That describes my two days of sugar. Hey, does anyone know, does your blood suger drop after the end of your monthly cycle? Anyways..I', going to Indianapolis this weekend to finish my last class for my CNHP. YEAH!! It will be the longest my hubby and I have ever been apart. :( We are both sad about that. I packed a bunch of fruits and vegs. I am off to the fair tonight to see my husband's band play. Their name is Evermore www.evermorepraise.com . Well, I won't be taking my computer so have a GREAT and blessed weekend to all....talk to ya on Monday or Sunday night!?!
07.11.07
1 c coffee w/van creamer
1/2 pt blueberries*
1 org food bar (90% raw)
500 ml water
1 banana*
1 qt water
green beans*
1 avocado w/ flax oil and hemp seeds*
1 pt veg fried rice
1 oat rasin cookie
1 qt water
17 (yes, I said 17) mint creme cookies
feeling a bit, yes, a lot, full and stuffed and sick. I can "feel" the sugar buzz, feel it going through my veins.

07.12.07
woke up feeling a bit ill from the sugar, but wait, addiction rebuilds tolerance....
1 1/2 c coffee w/ van creamer
16 oz juice* (celery/cucumber/beet/aloe juice/coconut water)
(YUM!!, I've discovered I DO like beets-juiced.)
1 corn on cob*
1 c white rice
500 ml water
1 pt mixed blueverries and cherries*
7 pecan shortbread cookies
1 c pasta salad
3 doughnuts
1 qt water

Sweet cherries....Yummmmm......

2007-07-11T23:06:00.000-04:00

Yesterday I went to a small summer market and bought some sweet cherries. Oh My Gosh!!!!!! For some reason, I thought I did not like cherries (kind of like as a child I didn't like spinach and grew up and tried it and loved it!!). Well, I just felt an overwhelming feeling to buy them so I did and they are most AWESOME!!!! My husband and I finished the entire carton before we went to bed. Ok, I ate almost 1/2 of it before I got home after work :). They are my current new fav food.
.07.09.07
1 c coffee w/ van creamer
smoothie* (strawberry/blueberry/aloe vera/coconut water/ Barlean's greens)
handful of gogi berries*
1 1/2 T peanut butter
16 oz van latte
1/2 vanilla cupcake (felt "heavy" as soon as I ate it)
500 ml water
1 corn on the cob
baby greens and tomato w/ dressing (flax oil/balsamic vinager/chives/cayene)*
1 qt water
3 oat rasin cookies
1 C cho/coconut treat (coconut meat/coconut water/dates/honey/cacao powder)*
7 pretzel sticks

07.10.07
1 C coffee w/ van creme
16oz green juice (celery/cucumber/apple/parsley/aloe vera juice)*
1 corn on cob*
1/4 c blueberries*
500 ml water
odwalla "super protein" bar
over 1/2 box of cherries*
apricot/nut/coconut granola bar
2 T p.b.
1 qt water
2 oz ww pasta w/ marinara sauce
1 c raspberry-ginger cereal

I am still doing Yoga on Mondays, I would like to do it more often, I really enjoy it and so does my body!!!
Much Happyness........................ :)

Being open to learning and learn how to commit.....

2007-07-09T17:32:00.000-04:00

I was reading a blog by my best friend today and it really spoke to me about learning about our diets or meal plans (I do like that better, we have put such a "twist" on the word diet here in our western culture). We should read, ask, research, obtain knowledge, and experiment on what we believe is best for "ourselves" and them have the strength to commit to it. And....when we have great things happen (weight loss, healing from disease, etc..) we should share this with others and give them hope and knowledge to change their lives. Of course, there is One who is the Ultimate Healer, who has healed us all by us just accepting Him, if you don't know him yet, I hope you will...he is Jesus.
I am really excited that the weight is still coming off at a good, sensible pace. Another 2 lbs down. I really believe adding exercise and raw foods and decreasing the sugary, processed foods has made a difference.
Peace and Love to all :) .................................................
Food for 07.07.07
1 c coffee w/ van creamer
1 c blueberries*
salad* (baby greens, tomato, soaked, sprouted and dehydrated sunflower and pumpkin seeds)
w/ organic green garlic dressing
1 qt water
1 corn on cob*
org food bar (80% raw)
4 oat rasin cookies
4 potato chips
1 qt water
1/2 12" cheese pizza w/ tomato and mushroom
2 c ruby chai tea (decaf)

07.08.07
2 c coffee w/ van creamer
1 banana*
1 qt water
1 avocado w/ flax oil/hemp seeds/ s.s.d. seeds*
16oz green juice* (celery/cucumber/cilantro/parsley/apple/carrot)
1 apple*
1 org food bar * (100% raw)
500 ml water
1 1/2 T peanut butter
1 fortune cookie
1 banana*
1 corn on cob*
a few pieces of coconut meat*
500 ml water

"SEVEN, 7"...................

2007-07-07T21:47:00.001-04:00

It's 07.07.07!!!!How cool. "7" has always been my fav number-had to have it every year when I played soccer.
My aploigizes for being sooooo behind in posting. I have had this respiratory "thing" since the afternoon of the 4th. I was off work for 1 1/2 days-I never call off work. It's weird for me, I never get sick-really. Then I began to think today-maybe this IS healthy for me. I mean, my body is expelling toxins-which I definately want out not in, so this may be good. I wonder if more raw if helping this to happen. Hmmm, I am not sure, just a guess, but any insight would be appreciated :) ......
Here's some catch up on last few days of eating..
07.04.07
1/2 c coffee w/ van creamer
1/2 c hazelnut latte
2 strawberry crepes
oatmeal raisin cookie dough
1 c echinicea tea
3 oatmeal raisin cookies
16.9 oz water
12 oz juice (celery/cucumber/carrot/parsley/cilantro)*
16.9 oz water
1/2 cheese quesadella
(NOT a raw day, at all.....made excuses to eat the foods I ate.,,the crepes, the cookie dough.....used "fixing it for a family breakfast and fixing the cookies for others as the excuse....that is "using" others instead of accepting my responsibilities and actions.....maybe I wanted it, but there are pleanty of raw substitutes.....giving in is not an excuse, it is weakness and a lack of faith-my thoughts on this day :)).
07.05.07
today I got the big start of feeling sick, by mid afternoon I was sneezing, congested, blowing my nose a lot, coughing)
1 c coffee w/ van creamer
4 oz peach soy yogurt
1 raw brownie*
raw soup* (leftover from 7/2) with strawberry puree* added
2 c water
1 c echinacea tea
sm handful potato chips (??!-I am sick!!!!! hello!!!)
4 oatmeal rasin cookies(" " " ")
10 oz juice (orange/celery/cucumber/carrot)*
1 c breathe deep tea
1 soft taco (leftover from 07.03)
2 c water
1 c water
07.06.07
sick, in bed all day.....
around 4 pm...
1 c water
2 1/2 c decaf coffee w/ van creamer
1 raw brownie*
1 apple*
2 c water
1 veggi burger* w/ honey* and soy dressing
1 c breathe deep tea
approx 1 c blueberries*

raw-healthy, cooked-ill................

2007-07-04T21:03:00.000-04:00

I have really discovered the difference between being well with raw and being ill with cooked. I am not even 100% raw, but I recently every time I eat something cooked that is processed or made with refined suger my stomach IMMEDIATELY reacts and I feel like I am having acid reflux. Woha, this is totally new to me, but I find it means that my body is changing and adapting to more raw foods and less processws foods. I have been feeling stuffy, sneezy and coughing today and just kinds yucky. I really believe it is from all the "yucky" food I have eaten the last several days. You can see for yourself. I made some green juice a bit ago and it really feels like it is "kicking it out of me"!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :)
Food for last several days:
07.01.07
1 c coffee w/ van creamer
1 apricot*
1 organic fiber bar
16oz latte
1 raw vegan burger w/ 1/2 avo and 1 sm org tomato*
16.9 oz water
1 pkt. carmel hot cho
1 fig*
1 sm cho chip cookie
10 saltines w/ sout cream
40 wheat thins w/ a bit of bacon ranch dip (what the ??? bacon????)
2 raw brownies*
16.9 oz water
not a nourishing day, need good, healthy food

07.02.07
another 1 lb down, yeah!!, I really think the exercise is helping, what do you think 100% raw will do for my body?--I have no doubt, GOOD stuff will happen!!
1 1/2 c coffee w/ van creamer
16oz van latte
1 apricot*
8 oz water
2 soft tacos (beans/salsa/cheese/guacamole/lettuce/tomato)
chips and salsa
16.9 oz water
2 c breathe deep tea by yogi teas
2 figs*
2 raw brownies*
raw soup* (celery/baby greens/carrot/cilantro/apple/rasins/water) in blender
1 corn on cob*
1/2 oz dk chocolate
16.9 oz water
1/2 c breathe deep tea

07.03.07
go up and did yoga-my body wanted it 1st thing.
1 c coffee w/ vanilla creamer
smoothie (banana/frozen berries/orange/gr powder/water)*
16.9 oz water
1 raw brownie*
16.9 oz water
3.5 oz dk cho bar (had at the movies)
1 soft taco (beans/cheese/lettuce/tomato/guacamole/sour cream)
too many chips and salsa (about a basket) Hubby took me out to dinner at our 1st date resturant
1/2 cheese quesadella
man...I was ill after all that mexican food---way tooooo much!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
1 c tummy mint tea
brownie sundae

raw receipes-"uncooking"

2007-07-01T16:20:00.000-04:00

I have made a few raw foods that I find I really like so I thought I'd share them here. I got one of the receipes from http://rawlivingfoods.typepad.com/ . I really like the raw brownies-YUM!! The raw veggie burgers are good, but I have discovered after various attempts with other receipes that I don't like garlic in dehydrated goods. It is just too strong for me (but I have always loved garlic cooked-lots of it!!!!), and doesn't taste the same as cooked-well duh!!! :) Anyways, I might attempt one more time with just a tiny piece of garlic. We'll see. I found that a burger topped with a sliced tomato will minimize the strong garlic flavor.

For the veggie burger I liked go to the above website and go to recipes-entrees on the left side of the page. I used pulp from nut mylk (Yeah, now I have something to do with the nut pulp) and carrots. I can't remember where I got the raw brownie recipe from but it is very simple: 1 C date paste
1 1/4 C raw almond butter
1 1/4 C raw carob powder
(I used 1/2 C raw cacao powder and 3/4 C carob powder)
1/3 C raw honey
stir up and press into glass pan and keep in freezer- YUM!!!!!!!Happy uncooking :) !!!!!!!

On 6.30.07 I ate:

1:45 am-3 handfuls of pretzel sticks w/ sour cream ?? :(

went to bed.......................

1c coffee w/ van creamer
1 banana*
2 pieces raw brownie*
16.9 oz water
1/4 can refried beans w/ salsa* and 1/2 avocado*
2 raw brownies*
16.9 oz water
16.9 oz water
1 raw brownie*

12:15am-7.1.07-approx 30 something wheat thin crackers

OK, I was addicted to raw brownies today-good, but can't be a food staple every day :). I also think I need to make some raw crackers, since that appears to be my "craving" each night.

Peace to all.......be thankful for Freedom!!!.....................................

Inspiration.................do it to glorify God

2007-06-29T23:55:00.000-04:00

I have some scripture to help change eating habits. I had a copy but I don't remember where I got it from. Anyways, I have been finding I have plenty of tools if I just apply them. I found when eating today that I ate a lot of raw, but totally omitted "good" raw-greens. I ate a lot of raw brownies. I did make tham to plan ahead for the brownies I made to take to work. Anyways, they helped. Then I got home and there were brownies here I had made for my hubby and MIL. So I chose to eat a lg piece of them. Then I felt real sick, like I was having acid reflux?!?? (which I have never had a history of) It was weird. I think I was making myself sick with stress and beating myself up over the nonraw brownie. Here are the scriptures. Hope they are helpful. Feel free to share with me your thoughts and feelings about them. God is good. He has all we need for us-right in place. It's whether we choose to use it (will I choose to use it??)
1. Keep your mind active-think on right things (Prov. 19:15;27:7)
2. Don't eat to stuff yourself, but to satisify yourself. (Prov 13:25)
3. Watch your intake of sweets and meats. (Prov 23:3,20)
4. When you eat, do it to glorify God. (1Cor 10:31)
5. Take your bad eating habits to the cross and reckon them dead. (Prov. 23:2)
6. Pray in the Spirit for ten minutes before you sit down to eat. (Rom 8:26,27)
7. Speak right words about your food before you eat. (Prov. 18:20)
8. Don't eat when you are depressed. (Prov. 15:15)
9. Pray God's Word over your food. (1Tim 4:4,5; Deut. 7:13-15)

Food for 6.28.07:
1 1/2 c coffee w/ van creamer
16.9 oz water
1 c wild rice w/ dulse* and flax oil
handful almonds/rasins/pumpkin seeds/sunflower seeds*
organic sesame bar
4 c baby greens*w/ Annie's org green garlic dressing
6 figs*
16.9 oz water
12 oz lemon juice and water
16.9 oz water
avo/banana treat*
brownie batter :(
camomile tea
8 french fries
16.9 oz water

Food for 6.29.07:
1 c coffee w/ van stevia
1/2 c irish creme coffee w/ creamer and sugar
2 pieces raw brownie * (Much YUMMY-a now fav treat)!!!!
16.9 oz water
org lemon fiber bar*
1 fig*
2 raw brownies*
16.9 oz water
3/4 can refried beans
4"x4" piece nonraw brownie
hot tea
20 wheat thins
16.9 oz water

make good choices :) ......................................................................

Goal setting

2007-06-28T10:39:00.000-04:00

Today I wrote down my "top 10 goals" I want to accomplish. I had been compiling the goals for awhile and need to get serious and get them in place. I put them on a notecard so I can carry them with me everywhere and set them on my keyboard at work to look at. After writing them out I feel I could really "refine" them, I think just getting the goals in place are a good start for "focus". Anyways, I can get wayyy to specific about goals. I can and will refine as I go. What is important is setting them and working to accomplish them. The joy will come from accomplishing them. :)

I feel that I am to share them. Must be because this is what this blog is all about for me so here they are:
Cindy's top 10 Goals
1. Go Raw
a. go vegetarian(done)
b. give up processed foods, give up refined sugars
c. go vegan
2. Pray daily
3. Read Bible daily
4. Set up a blog. (done)
5. Learn to play Bass.
6. Decrease body fat to 20% - 25%./ decrease BMI to 21
7. Lose 25 lbs.
8. Study massage a minimum of 5 hrs./ week
9. Exercise-set up a schedule and follow it.
10. Have "Cindy time" (massage at least every other week) and "Husband time" (date night at least 1 time/week).

**These goals are in no particular order**
Whew!!! That feels better!!! :)

Nourishment for 6.26.07:
1/2 C coffee w/ vanilla creamer
1/2 C teechino(this is an awesome coffee substitute)w/ van creamer
1 org food bar(greens)
1 brownie
16.9 oz water
1/2 c wild rice w/ dulse* and flax oil
fruit and nut bar
3 handfuls popcorn
1/3 cantalope*
16.9 oz water
handful of mix of almonds/rasins/sunflower and pumpkin seeds*
16.9 oz water
apricot*
5 saltines
4 pretzel sticks
soy yogurt-strawberry (Yuck!! I didn't like this kind)
1/2 c wild rice
corn on cob*
----THANKS inspiredraw, it was great raw!!!------
2/3 lg dark cho bar

So, as I look over today, I see that I ate about 30% raw. I also see much of what I ate I can get or make in a raw version. Planning and preperation is what will make this a goal of going raw that I can accomplish. Need to work on more water throughout the day.

Food for 6.27.07
1 1/2 c coffee w. van creamer
4 oz peach soy yogurt (this one was good!!)
1/4 c pasta salad
16.9 oz water
1 slice fruit pizza (made on a sugar cookie crust)
salad-lettuce and tomato*
lg fuji apple* (YUM, never had this kind before)
16oz van chai ("treated" myself after getting through a big presentation at work-hmmmm-next time I will get some raw chocolate on hand!!)
16.9 oz water
2 servings wheat thins (32 crackers)
approx 1 c maccaroni w/ cream of mushroom soup (I was making tuna noodle casserole for my hubby and M-I-L.)
soyburger w/raw salsa
avo/banana pudding on almond/date crust* topped w/ not raw coconut
8 oz water

about 30% raw today...want to increase this to at least 50%.
the pudding was "ok", something I didn't like about it though. I'll have to work with it some more. I have to make brownies for work tomorrow so I am going to try my first batch of "raw" brownies.
Hey, they more raw treats available IN my home, the less likely I will feel drawn to the "not raw" stuff. (Can't ask hubby and MIL to get rid of their foods, wouldn't be right) What a revelation Cindy. :) Again, it's back to planning and preparation and trusting in the word of God. (quite a winded blog today)
Peace and Love to you all....................................

Slow down, prepare

2007-06-26T16:46:00.000-04:00

I must apoligize, even to myself. I have been getting really behind on writing. I want to keep up with this because I really feel it is important so I can get honest, see the "real" me and work towards my goals-weight loss, health and getting RAW. I feel as though the last week or so life has been swirling around like a merry-go-round and I can't get off. I'm not sad, or angry, or even wore out, just spinning around with a feeling of needing to slow down. Last night I laid down to bed much earlier than I ever do and I was OUT pretty quickly. I don't remember taking off my glasses or putting down my book or anything. Goes to show me, I can go and go and go but I really need to slow down and give my body some rest! I have also discovered that the more cooked, processed, sugary foods I eat, the less patience, focus and tolerance I have.
So, what I am learning is that there is more to eating raw than eating raw.
What is it that I want, what is the total picture of going raw. What is my goal-for eating and for emotional change?
Food for Sun 6.24.06
1 1/2 C coffee w/ vanilla creamer
1 biscuit
1/2 apple, 1/2 banana*
lg handful of soaked/sprouted/dehydrated nuts and seeds*
sm handful macadamia nuts*
16.9 oz water
16oz juice: celery/cucumber/carrot/apple/parsley/cilantro
8 cho chip cookies
7 potato chips
3"x1" piece of PB fudge
1 1/2 C stuffing
1/2 C ice cream
16.9 oz water
pepermint tea
van yogurt granola bar
I just felt like I was eating out of bordom, and the food was doing nothing at all for me.

Food for Mon. 6.25.07
1/2 C coffee w/ van creamer
red grapes*
2 soft tacos w/ beans/lettuce*/tomato*/ guacamole*/salsa*
16.9 oz water
handful seeds*
handful almonds*
16.9 oz water
banana*
sm handful popcorn
1/2 c vanilla soy ice cream
5 steak fries
1/2 c wild rice w/ flax oil and dulse
1/2 avocado*
2 baby portabella mushrooms*
16.9 oz water

Planning for cravings and caring too much

2007-06-25T00:21:00.000-04:00

I was thinking about how a craving can be such a set-up for failure. And then the thought hit me that caring too much about "how I look" can also be a set up for failure. I mean, I do want to be healthy and go raw, but I can't be obsessed that it becomes so important that it takes over-sometimes it feels that way. I dislike having to admit that, but it is true. I need to get comfortable with me and who I am. I am not a 110 lb "model" and I never will be. I would be unhealthy if that was my body. I just want to lose some weight and the body fat and be happy with my body. I truly believe my body will shift into it's "natural size" when I make the choice to cut out the sugar and processed foods and eat raw. I need to find and be prepared with substitutes when I have the cravings for "junk" food.

Food for Sat 6.23.07:
1 C coffee w/ vanilla creamer
16.9 oz water
fruit- 1 1/2 banana, red grapes, 1/2 apple, pieces of watermelon and cantelope
org food bar-vegan (90% raw)
16.9 oz water
1 C steamed rice w/ steamed vegetables and garlic sauce
16.9 oz water
2 med reg coffees w/ soymilk and sugar
2 grilled cheese sandwiches
16.9 oz water
8 chocolate chip cookies
Now I feel sick!! It's is almost silly. I wanted to eat the ice cream I had (vanilla soy ice cream) and thought "no", but then "acted" on the craving and ate the sandwiches and cookies. I need to slooowww down, plan better and see and remember that there are raw substitutes for everything I crave. Kinda funny, huh?!?
I think I'll try to stop beating myself up!!!

Cleansing

2007-06-23T23:45:00.000-04:00

Here is a topic of cleansing that is important to share about and to use-colonics and enemas. Well last night I did an enema (TMI ??, my apoligies if it is for you) and I felt very clean afterwards. I felt lighter and clearer, very pure. I felt very "in tune and in touch with myself and my body. Maybe it was getting the toxins-waste-out!!! I really want to get colon hydrotherapy done. In the morning I weighed myself and I was 4 lbs lighter. It goes to prove that it is true-most of us hold 5-15 lbs of waste in our intestines. I bet I will feel real cleansed and clean after colonics. I will share about it when I get it done. I would really recommend this if you are not doing it already.

Nourishment for Friday 6.22.07:
2 C coffee w/ vanilla creamer
16.9 oz water
soyburger w/ small organic tomato*, 1/2 avocado* and dulse*
fruit and nut bar
banana*
organic food bar-greens-(90% raw)
16.9 oz water
2 pieces PB fudge
(w/in 5 minutes my stomach felt upset after eating the fudge)
1 1/2 C coffee w/ vanilla creamer
3/4 pt steamed rice w/ steamed vegetables and garlic sauce
1 fortune cookie
8 oz water

definately lacking on the water today. Fair eating day, not much raw. In case you wondered, I put a * next to what is raw that I have eaten.

goodnight............................................................. :)

Sluggard, don't be one......

2007-06-22T17:48:00.000-04:00

I found a new word today-Sluggard-a lazy one who lacks self control. Well, I definately don't want to be a sluggard!! Yes, it's not all about self-control. I mean, we must have faith and rely on Him for help, but actually it is about self control, too. We DO need to have some form of self-control. I mean, we can't just go wild and do "whatever" we want and expect our lives to just be "happy-go-lucky". I must accept, there needs to be some level of self-control, the ability to say "NO"!!!!! It is a CHOICE!!!!!!!!! It is good to do. Boy, I can look back at my past and see where lack of self control really got me then. (I'll share more at a later date...) Yes, self-control is good. It is good NOT to be a sluggard. :)

Nourishment for Thursday 6.21.07:
1 1/2 C coffee w/ vanilla creamer
16.9 oz water
1 C sweet potato (cooked)
salad: iceberg lettuce, cauliflower, broccli, tomato*

the following was at the building dedication at work, all in all, for sweets, I feel I did quite well (even though I said "yes" :) )
___________________
1 mini creme puff
1 mini eclair
1 lg cho chip/M&M cookie
______________________
then I noticed I had a stuffy nose.
16.9 oz water
1 can vegetarian 3 bean chili
16 oz juice-pineapple/carrot/apple/beet/celery/cilantro*
16.9 oz water
apple*
romine lettuce/banana smoothie*
8 oz water

not a very raw day today, but I felt GREAT after the 16oz juice. I had massage clinicals right after that and I was soooo focused and felt very "in tune" with the massages I gave.
until tomorow........Love and Happyness :)

Happy Summer!!!!!!!!!

2007-06-21T13:38:00.000-04:00

Well, today is the lllooonnngggeeessttt day of the year (how cool) and our first day of summer. Yeah!! It is a beautiful day here in my part of the world. Blue, sunny skies, low 80's, nice breeze. Just a "perfect" day. Hard to stay inside and work. My day yesterday was not all raw and as I can use as analysis, it was quite noticable to me. I noticed feeling somewhat "sluggish" off and on in the day. I also noticed I wanted to eat more in the P.M. Hmmm, maybe cooked food elicits " cravings" for more throughout the day. I wasn't physically hungry, but I was mentally hungry. Like I couldn't get it off my mind-uncontrollably. (Is that a word?) The day before, when I ate raw, I wanted to eat at night, but it wasn't "uncontrollable". And my thoughts we more directed on healthy foods-fruits and nuts. I am on to a discovery about myself and what food does to me mentally, emotionally, and physically. I have to then look at how it affects my spiritually. Will I feel closer to God eating raw? More in touch? More aware of Him? Maybe. I would almost think so since I wouldn't be so caught up in addictive thinking and eating patterns. Here is a great scripture reference:
You should know that your body is a temple for the Holy Spirit who is in you. You have received the Holy Spirit from God. So you do not belong to yourselves, because you were bought by God for a price. So honor God with your bodies.
1 Cor 6:19,20 NCV (I love this version of the Bible)
Well, I will let you know as more develops.

Nourishment for Wed 6.20.07:
1 1/2 C green juice: celery, cucumber, apple, cilantro, parsley*
1 organic food bar-(protein-80% raw)
16.9 oz water
1/2 bunch romine lettuce*
nut bar (nuts and puffed rice w/ honey)
2 baby bella mushrooms* w/ humus and dulse*
1 bunch red grapes*
16.9 oz water
organic food bar-(omega 3 flax-100% raw)*
1 strawberry fruit leather
1 strawberry yogurt granola bar
1/2 C vanilla soy ice cream
16.9 oz water
handful almonds*
8 oz water

After looking over my eating yesterday I noticed what I did not eat raw could be "recreated" in a raw version. Something to plan better for. Or, maybe just making several raw treats, snacks, etc. can help to have on hand. Whola!!!!
Peace, Love and Happyness to all!

Oh, HAPPY Day!!! :)

2007-06-20T10:25:00.000-04:00

Yesterday was such a wonderful day. I had a 100% raw day and I just feel real good today!! I went to my cardio class after work and then went and got a Massage....oh, what a blessing. I feel I need to remember to treat myself and take care of me, too. I think I will start getting a massage at least every other week....I should know this, though, since I am in school to be a masage therapist!?!! :) I read a great quote on http://www.inspiredraw.blogspot.com/ that I am going to quote here. THANKS inspiredraw for sharing this!!

"If we eat wrongly, no doctor can cure us; if we eat rightly, no doctor is needed."
Dr. Victor Rocine, Norwegian Physician Circa 1930

OH, I must share. My husband made his FIRST smoothie today. banana and orange. He said he loved it and plans to make more. Yeah!!! Maybe soon he will try a green smoothie.....
Nourishment for the day (6/19):
1 C coffee w/ stevia
1/2 avocado w/ lime, cilantro, dulse stuffed into 2 baby bella mushrooms*
1/2 bunch romine lettuce*
16.9 oz water
2 carrots*
16.9 oz water
16.9 oz water
bunch of red grapes*
corn on the cob (oops, this wasn't raw)ok, 95% raw day :)
few pieces of watermelon*
handful almonds*
8 oz water

have a greatful day :) !!!!!!............................

Binging...hiding

2007-06-18T17:12:00.000-04:00

I'm starting to feel "embarrassed" to even post what I eat each day. It is such a disgrace to my body! I guess it is easy right now because I don't have any comments, which makes me think noone is reading my blog and my eating habits remain a "secret"!?! Hmmm, this behavior sounds too familiar to me. Giving up and in: powerlessness, unmanageability. I think I'd be more conscience of what I ate if I knew someone was watching. This is just all too CRAZY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It's insane!!!!!! Hey, God is watching. Yeah! Huh!!! Help me, I am sick of drowning......
Food today:
1/2 C coffee w/ soymilk and stevia
1/2 C coffee w/ vanilla creamer
16.9 oz water
at 1:30pm I still have not eaten, and I brought a good, healthy, mostly raw lunch. I tell myself, "hey, go run your errands now and stop at the discount grocery and get some junky, sugary, processed food to eat (binge on)." So I do.
1 vanilla moon pie
1 cookie
1 hershey chocolate bar
1 fiesta burrito (Taco Bell, while I am pigging out, why not?!)
16.9 oz water
1 chocolate moon pie
16.9 oz water
(after 7pm)
3 doughnuts
2 yogurt granola bars
1 1/4 C elbow macaroni w/ marg. and parm. cheese
16.9 oz water

Healthy eating = Nourishment

2007-06-17T22:46:00.000-04:00

I thought today, when I eat "healthy" and raw foods my body feels nourished. Otherwise it is just food for the day. Why would I not want to nourish my body. Isn't that my responsibility? This is my temple, created by my Creator. He has entrusted me to take care of it. When I eat unhealthy, junk food am I not letting satan control and care for my body?

Food today:
1 C coffee w/ soymilk and stevia
plateful salad, carrots and celery
plateful fruit-watermelon, cantelope, grapes
1/4 slice zucchini bread
16.9 oz water
1 slice lemon meringe pie
1 C decaf coffee w/ soymilk and stevia
4 2"x2" pieces of pb fudge
1 serving pretzel sticks (32)
1 T cacao nibs
2 T gogi berries
1 C tea w/ 1 t honey
2 T PB
okay, at 11:45pm I wasn't even hungry, but felt like I HAD to eat before I went to bed. Maybe it was feeling guilty because it was sooo late and I have been wanting to get into a better REST routine. I definately don't allow myself to rest like my body needs and deserves.
I ate: 5 toaster waffles w/ maple syrup
2 handfuls of pretzel sticks w/ sour cream

Anger....quite the negative emotion, but it's a choice

2007-06-16T22:54:00.000-04:00

Today was a total emotional overload of release. I witnessed another fretting and upset as soon as I arose this morning and I found myself taking on those feelings all day. I was angry, mean, nasty, unwilling to admit fault, etc, etc, etc........I totally allowed evil spirits to overtake me and I gave in to them. When I felt it first overwhelming me, I was in my car and I felt the holy spirit spirit speaking to me telling me "I will take care of you, trust in me." I was the one-the one who chose not to trust. I feel as though my eating on Friday and today have affected my emotional well being also. I sure notice a change to negative emotions with the increase in sugar these last two days. This is NOT a nice feeling. So why chose it?!!??
Fri food:
1 C coffee w/ vanilla creamer
handful almonds*
1 1/2 C granola
1 L water
1 soyburger w/ 1/2 avocado and dulse
1/2 pkg strawberries*
(5pm-craving sweets-cake)
5 pieces fudge
1 C coffee (decaf) w/ vanilla creamer
went to surprise b-day party: pasta salad, chinese salad, i piece tiramisu, 1 piece b-day cake, strawberry dream puff dessert
2 pieces toast w/ margarine
toasted cheese sandwich
1 L water

Saturday food:
1 C coffee w/ vanilla creamer
1 slice watermelon
1 banana
2 t Barleans greens in water
3" x 3 1/2" piece pb fudge
1 corn on cob
1 slice watermelon
handful potato chips w/ 1/2 C sour cream
3/4 L water
slice of cheesecake

Confidence

2007-06-14T23:57:00.001-04:00

I must first report that I received trigger point therapy tonight from a fellow massage student. If you have never had this, let me tell you-IT HURTS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! But, it released some of the trigger points in my calfs. Now I can walk, almost normally!! :) YEAH!!!! It was definately worth it. Thanks Tery!!
I had a "bad" review from a client tonight. It really got to me. As I pondered it, I had to realize and admit that I lack self confidence. Why is this? This has been such a struggle for me-most of my life. I want to be comfortable with ME. I want to love myself. Why do I think I am not good enough? I am so tired of thinking if only I looked like..............or if only I knew....................etc.....It's a losing battle, it's painful!
Nourishment today:
1 C coffee w/ vanilla creamer
cucumber, celery, apple juice*
1/2 C granola
green pepper, tomato, pineapple*
1 soy burger
broccli and cauliflower(steamed) with dill soy dressing
small handful almonds*
strawberries *
1/2 C vanilla soy ice cream
1 L water

Sore...yeah...very sore :)

2007-06-13T22:12:00.000-04:00

Well, all I can say is I am sore from the cardio yesterday-but it was worth it. It will get better. :) It's good to get into some regular exercise. I find getting involved in "classes" makes me work harder. I need others motivation!!
Food today:
1 1/2 C coffee w/ vanilla creamer
1/2 C oat groats w/ cinnamon and apple*
almond and apricot fruit bar
1/2 avocado w/ dulse, lime juice, hemp seeds in romine lettuce*
1 L water
1 piece hard candy
3 pieces PB fudge
4 wheat crackers
1/2 C coscous w/ flax oil, dulse, cumin
750 ml water

Do it for His glory

2007-06-12T22:40:00.000-04:00

YEAH...Good day! I feel good today. Not going to let the devil get me today. He can't have me. I am a child of God. I am covered by the blood of Jesus. I have his love and guidance. Whatever I do, it is to be done for His glory. (1 Cor 10:31). Today was a very RAW day. I feel very "in touch and in tune". I started a cardio class today. I have taken ths instructor's class before. He is an awesome teacher, man I an whooped!! Yesterday I started a yoga class. It was great. I felt very relaxed and focuded during that hour.
Food today:
1 C coffee w/ vanilla creamer
bag of red grapes*
1 slice manna bread*
1/2 avocado w/ lemon,dulse,hemp seeds*
1 L water
cho brownie Clif bar
1 L water
1 bunch romine*
1/4 C coscous w/ cumin, dulse, salt
sm piece PB fudge
frozen berries and frozen banana* (a favorite!!!, put in food processor and blend until smooth-YUM)
1/2 L water

good day...and don't forget the exercise :) .......

Gave Up....

2007-06-11T23:30:00.000-04:00

Today I just gave up..I gave in with NO control and used that to be my excuse all day..oh, I'll just keep "pigging out" and start again tomorrow. See, it's all addiction. Some old excuses, same old lies. I feel disgusted with myself. I feel spacey, like I can't even get the simplist task done. It's all the sugar-it's a drug!!!!
Food today:
1 C coffee w/ vanilla creamer
1 vegan organic food bar
1 lg onion ring
1 doughnut
2 pieces PB fudge
2 lg handfuls potato chips
1/4 cantalope*
1 L water
piece of cho cake
2 doughnuts
1 frosted brownie
2 pieces PB fudge
brownie and ice cream sunday
500 ml water

well...that says it all...

failing and guidance....make your choice

2007-06-10T21:26:00.000-04:00

It's Sunday and I didn't write yesterday so I'll fill in for both days. Yesterday I layed down about 9pm with a stomach ache and wanted to eat ice cream, but never did since I didn't feel good enough to get up. Hmmmm, I need to get out of the kitchen early. It may help keep me from binging. Evenings are my worse. It's no different than my past. Others addictions (ie. drugs and alcohol) were the same way. I start out great with good intentions in the morning and find excuses and lies to allow myself to believe to indulge in my addiction of choice. Come on Cindy, grow up!!!! Get real, get a grip. Today, I had to go to a meeting and thought, "Oh, there will need to be a treat, I'll bring brownies w/ cream cheese frosting." Hmmm, sound familiar? Cream cheese frosting...read a few blogs back. Even days later I allow it to take control. No respect for myself...no self control...finding excuses. How have others done it? I want to learn about others who have dealt with the mental battle, the turmoil, the battle of the mind. Well, here are some references I know and will share... if I choose to assess them, they can actually help me: Joyce Meyers' book "The Battlefield of the Mind"; scripture references I found tucked in my bible tonight at church-1. Keep your mind active (Prov. 19:15; 27:7) 2. Don't eat to stuff yourself (Prov. 13:25) 3. Watch your intake of sweets and meats (Prov 23:3,20) 4. When you eat, do it to glorify God (1 Cor 10:31) 5. Take your bad eating habits to the cross and rekon them dead (Prov. 23:2) 6. Pray in the spirit for 10 minutes before you sit down to eat (Rom. 8:26,27) 7. Speak right words about your food before you eat (Prov. 18:20) 8. Don't eat when you are depressed (Prov. 15:15) 9. Pray God's Word over your food (1 Tim 4:4,5; Deut. 7:13-15).
There is another GREAT website I follow daily of an awesome woman who overcame morbid obesity and has been RAW for 5 years now!! Her name is Angela Stokes and her website is www.rawreform.com . I just want to find out from her, what helped her overcome the mental battle??
Nourishment for the last two days:
6.09.07
grapefruit, orange, apple juice*
1 C coffee w/ soymilk and stevia
Larabar*
(1000mcg chromium picolinate)
1 pear*
handful almonds* and handful gogi berries*
1 cracker, 3 potato chips, 5 T peanut butter
tofu w/ marinated muchrooms*
cucumbers and 1/2 avocado w/ lime juice and dulse*
1 piece garlic bread w/ cheese
750 ml water

6.10.07
1 1/2 C coffee w/ vanilla creamer
2t Barleans greens in water
1 L water
brownie batter and 1/2 can cream cheese frosting
handful almonds*
3 brownies w/ cream cheese frosting, 1 brownie-plain
2 C coffee w/ vanilla creamer
3 saltine crackers
2 T peanut butter
plateful of pasta w/ margarine and parmesan cheese
1 piece garlic bread w/ cheese
1 L water

make good choices......until tomorrow

Loving your body, respecting yourself...

2007-06-08T23:59:00.000-04:00

Well, today was quite a different day. My eating was so much better. This afternoon I took 1000mg of chromium picolinate. I have been reading it can help with blood sugar and burn body fat. I don't want to always be on supplements, but I want a kick start. I find that when I take my vitamin pack that my skin and hair loook better. I don't doubt though, that the more RAW I am, these things will occur without supplements. I really felt much less hungry after taking the chromium. I have had an obsession with my body and weight for as long as I can remember, at least since I was 14. I heard the other day "If you are not loving yourself and your body, you are not respecting yourself." It's time to start respecting myself!!!
Nourishment for the day:
1 C coffee w/ soymilk and stevia
organic food bar-omega-3 flax
1 avocado w/ hemp seeds, lime, dulse
1 L water
4 dried apricots
handful raw almonds
2 slices cheese pizza
2 C coffee w/ creamer
3 macadamia nuts
1 L water

with respect for me..for you.......

Don't give up, be FREE...late post for 6.7.07

2007-06-08T11:36:00.000-04:00

Well, I didn't post yesterday. It was late and I was wanting to get to bed. Had an early morning this morning. Seems all like an excuse now since I will tell the truth. I had clinicals last night (I'm in school for massage therapy) and got out around 9:30pm. Then it was straight to the grocery store. I actually started to think about doughnuts before I left clinicals. It is such a mind addiction. I went to the store, like I just gave up! I grabbed doughnuts and after walking the asiles of the store (with the junk food, actually now that I think about it, what asile isn't junk food beyond the produce section??) I put them back-more because they were out of what I was craving, and instead settled for a BOX of snack cakes. Danger, danger!!! So this morning I prayed as I was in the bathroom getting ready for work and cast down this evil spirit I am giving power to in Jesus name. As I think about being "free", I look up on my computer monitor and read a quote I taped to it by the inspiring raw foodist Jinjee Talifero (www.TheGardenDiet.com), which I don't utilize and read enough-and it is RIGHT in front of me!!! My failures come from my unwillingness to change and unwillingness to feel the mental and physical pain that can acompany it. Here is the quote from Jinjee:
Becoming healthier is something we don't have to do all at once. Just taking the first step, no matter how small, gives us momentum. The whole body takes note of our intention and the action that we have backed our intention with, and the gates to the path of health are thrown open for us. Taking that first step gives us the courage and confidence to take the next one, and soon we are well on our way, making so much progress on the path of healthy living.
Nourishment for the day of 6.7.07:
1 C decaf coffee w/ soymilk and vanilla stevia
1 lg bunch of red grapes
cranberry ginger granola bar
1 L water
wild rice (cooked)
apple
chips and dip :(
avocado w/ hemp seeds, lime, salt, dulse
3 1/2 snack cakes :(
more chips :(
1 L water
until later :)....................................

Goals........

2007-06-06T23:09:00.000-04:00

Better food day today, had to "overcome" the mental battle. I stood in the store with a can of cream cheese frosting and felt it quite a victory to put it back. Normally, I would buy it and eat it straight-the sugar addiction, gotta have it..more, more, more....
Nourishment today:
1 C coffee w/ stevia
2 apricots, dried
1 fig
handful almonds
2 slices watermelon
1 organic food bar
1 L water
pear
1 corn on cob
1 bowl apple cinnamon granola, plain
peppermint tea
1 bowl raspberry ginger cereal, plain
1 L water

I thought today that I need to set a or some goals as to why I want to go raw and what's in it for me-the benefits. I will think these through and post later...........Goals, goals are good!!

Permission to "pig out"

2007-06-05T22:20:00.000-04:00

Well, today I got up, packed a great, healthy, raw lunch and never ate a bit of it.
I really want to eat better today than yesterday. The emotional termoil associated with eating highly processed, sugary foods is overwhelmingly painful.
Food today:
2 C coffee w/ soymilk and stevia
--having cravings for cake, mental battle, giving up__
2 pkgs hazelnut wafers
1 fiesta burrito
1 lg slice cake
spaghetti w/ parm cheese
potato chips

I am powerless and my life has become unmanagable

2007-06-04T23:26:00.000-04:00

How do I feel today? Out of control. Out of touch. Disobedient. He talks to me and I don't listen. "It's always the first one." I don't even feel like sharing my "nourishment for the day"-hahaha-right now. Loss of control, no, there is no control, there is powerlessness and unmanagability. It all begins with a first step. This soo reminds me of drug addiction. Meditate on this, pray on this, how did that change?, how do I use that life experience to help here?
Nourishment today:
12 oz green juice
1 organic food bar
1/2 C smoothie (rasp., straw., lemonade, sherbert, apple juice)
1 piece cho candy
2 figs
5 pkgs of peanut butter bars
onion rings
corn on the cob
spaghetti and parmesan cheese
peppermint tea
1 L water
2 bowls ice cream w/ chocolate

True Love :) ------ Mistakes and Forgiveness

2007-06-03T22:53:00.000-04:00

Today my husband and I attended the wedding of a girl I worked with. She is such a beautiful young woman of God. When the Pastor said for the two of them to share their "first kiss EVER"
I teared up...I mean it was REALLY their first ever kiss. They waited. It was sooo beautiful and Godly and you could feel their love for each other. Their love is such an inspiration and encouragement.
I had quite a lesson learned today. Long story short, I got into "gossip" over lunch yesterday, made an untrue statement about a friend and went and apoligized to her after church service tonight. I had such a heavy heart all last night and today and thought it was the gossip, but it was more....it was not sharing the truth with the person I felt it about.
Asking for forgiveness is humbling, yet loving and opens the door to forgiveness. She didn't even hesitate to forgive me and even said she was humbled by me?. Now the door is open for us to build a friendship. So, lesson learned..never let fear stop you from admitting your mistakes and asking for forgiveness and always keep away from gossip-when it's not your business, it's not your business.

Nutrition for the day: :( It's never too late to recommitt to RAW!!!
2 C coffee w/ vanilla stevia and soymilk
buffett/wedding meal:
1 serving spoon: pasta salad
noodles
broccoli casserole
strawberries and cream
chinese cole slaw salad
2 serving spoons: watermelon
macaroni and cheese
green pepper slices and cherry tomatoes
1 slice cho. chip cheesecakew/ strawberries and raspberries
7 fig newtons
2 sugar cookies
1 C coffee
1 chocolate milkshake
3 slices cheese pizza
1 L water 1 kit kat crispy bar

wayyyy tooooo much sugar.......this stops. I CAN change this now!!!!!!!

with thoughts of love and forgiveness......................... :)